Just want to Shout out

[Guest_1055]

I am just so tired, and I don't think I can try anymore. All I want to do is curl up tight and cry and cry. I am sick of this, and I even feel cross, as I said that. I can't do this, I just can't. And I don't think I want to anymore. I am not asking for any advice really and I am aware of the phone numbers and such., etc. But I just want to shout and shout out loud and say that I am plain sick of this. I am tired of struggling to get to where ever it is that I am going. I don't think I am making any sense either. So since I am unable to shout out in real life at the moment. I hope it is okay with whoever who reads this that I am virtually going to shout out now. I also feel like punching out, because it is just too much. It's too much.

I HATE THIS, JUST HATE IT. I AM TIRED OF FAILING AND FAILING. I JUST WANT TO GO.

[Guest_1055]

Hi Stressless, You sound so tired and fed up with things, well more then fed up. I am sorry you are struggling so.

I will need to think a bit more though. From reading a bit more of your thread you and your hubby sound quite stressed and emotional. It is a challenge to see clear when things are like this. Well that has been my experience.

I wouldn't make any rash decisions as some emotional problems blind us to see the right way to go. They speak so loud sometimes.

And of course you would like your hubby to simply listen to you.

Anyway I think a bit more.

Shell xx

[Quercus]

Hi Shelley 😊

I have a surprise for you (just because).

Remember how we were talking about stock flowers? I have a new one for you. A purple foxglove! It is so beautiful so I wanted to share it with you even if it's in spirit.

I've never planted foxgloves before. It has come up among my perennial stattice so the front garden is an explosion of purple with pastel stock. It makes me so happy to look at it.

There is another about to open... No idea what colour. Another surprise in wait.

Hope you are ok. 🌸🌸🌸🌸🌸

Nat

[Guest_1055]

Ooh Thankyou so much Nat. And you sound almost excited there. Yeah I think you do....🙂I am going to Google a purple foxglove. I have a vision of large bell type shape flowers , a few of them growing together on a stem. And do they pop up from a bulb?

Anyway I will be back in a tick, then once I have an accurate picture of a beautiful purple foxglove, I should be able to get a clearer vision of your pretty garden there. And I think I am catching your excitement or something.....🌸🌱🌸

Shell xx

[Croix]

Dear Shell~

I popped in to thank you for that excellent point you made to Nowornever about not wanting your hubby to fix or to suggest how to improve, and how this makes you feel less attacked, more cherished

That really was spot on and shows great insight, I'm very glad you posted

Croix

[Guest_1055]

Nat I have now looked at a few images of purple foxgloves, actually quite a few different shades of purple and pinky colours. They are truly beautiful hanging together on tall stems. So now I am getting a virtual scent even from the stock in your front garden as well. Thankyou for sharing your garden with me.

Shell xx

[Guest_1055]

Thankyou Croix....

And yes I have come to the realisation of this in my own marriage. I just love it when my hubby really listens and attempts to understand my heart. It feels like I am a person worth knowing. That is the cherished feeling. But it is not always like that.

I am unsure even if that man will read what I wrote. He seems like such a nice person anyway. A caring sort of dude.

Much kindness to you Croix , and I really appreciate you saying what you said , it makes me feel like I have something worthwhile and perhaps helpful for someone else. I feel encouraged or built up in some way by your words to me.

So a kind Thankyou to you

Shell

[Guest_1055]

Hi Stressless, I have tried to have some thoughts , well anything that could help or comfort you in some way. But I don't think I have much.

But I do understand what it feels like to be so weary of things. For me, as it is happening to me as I write this. I just want to curl up in a ball and sob and sob. I have been doing this, allowing myself to feel the aching pain within. I don't want to push it down inside my heart, nor do I want to distract myself from feeling it.

So with all this crying, and hurting I have been telling God that it hurts so much. And that I cannot work this out. I can't Stressless. I am still here on my bed, hugging my pillow. And feeling a dull ache within. I have also spoken out that I forgive this person for hurting me.

I need to go now Stressless, I am unsure if I have helped you in any way, but I do care about you.

Shell xx

[Quercus]

Hi Shelley,

I'm not up to speed with why you are hurting but you sound very tired and sad.

My Grandad and Grandma helped in the gardens around their church when I was little. So I always associate gardens and flowers and earth with peace and being closer to God.

Take my foxglove and some stattice and stock for a vase in your room. At least then if you're hugging your pillow and sobbing you have something to comfort you 😊

You're right I was so excited and wanted to share it. I'm glad you picked up on the happy vibes.

Take care and enjoy the flowers.

❤ Nat

[Guest_1055]

Oh beautiful Thankyou Nat..

[velvetfaerie]

Hey Shell,

I am sorry you are sad. I want to give you a hug and a cuppa.

V.