Just want to Shout out

[Guest_1055]

I am just so tired, and I don't think I can try anymore. All I want to do is curl up tight and cry and cry. I am sick of this, and I even feel cross, as I said that. I can't do this, I just can't. And I don't think I want to anymore. I am not asking for any advice really and I am aware of the phone numbers and such., etc. But I just want to shout and shout out loud and say that I am plain sick of this. I am tired of struggling to get to where ever it is that I am going. I don't think I am making any sense either. So since I am unable to shout out in real life at the moment. I hope it is okay with whoever who reads this that I am virtually going to shout out now. I also feel like punching out, because it is just too much. It's too much.

I HATE THIS, JUST HATE IT. I AM TIRED OF FAILING AND FAILING. I JUST WANT TO GO.

[Guest_1055]

Hi Later,

Vent all the anger in here if you think it will help.

Sometimes that is what I just need to do, so the anger feeling does not lash out towards other people. It can hurt them.

What is causing you to be angry?

Shell xx

[velvetfaerie]

Oh honey Shell he is gone.

I told him to go away and sort his life out and I am moving on with mine.

**Deleted** LOL !!!

V.

[Guest_1055]

Oh good move Velv.. I am so proud of you.

xx

[velvetfaerie]

I won't lie but I am heartbroken. I do love him, but a small part of me hates him. I also hate a part of myself for being so .... me.

Hope he enjoys the life he created for himself GRRRRRRRRRR.

[Guest_1055]

I am sorry you feel heartbroken Velv, it is such a painful feeling that one.

I long to help you feel better in some way. But I guess it takes time for broken hearts to heal.

Yeah there are things I hate about me also.

Hope you are staying nice and cozy and warm at your place. Did you end up going to the gym or walking anywhere today? That normally helps you with your emotions doesn't it?

Shell xx

[velvetfaerie]

Time will help Shell.

Haahahha as I read you asking if I'm warm And cozy, my mum texted through the same question! Eerie!

I've been walking lots this week. Went to gym tonight. Starting to feel ok.

The things about me I kinda hate are personality traits people like, and some prey upon: giving, loving, accepting, compassionate.... I listen/see/feel with my heart. Gets me in the poo all the time.

Velvz.

[Guest_1055]

Gosh you have a great way to express your self Velv, I love it. ie the last sentence.

Yes I like all those traits you just mentioned. Now I am thinking of something I learnt from somewhere like our strengths (like the traits you just mentioned )can also be one of our greatest weaknesses as well or something like that...

Hey that is great you did some exercise. I went to the gym also.

So are you warm and cozy then? Currrently I am snuggled into this electric hot water bottle thingy. Nice....

Have a good day tomorrow,

Good night

xx

[Doolhof]

Good morning everyone,

Hugs to you all, wish I could send you all flowers as well, or your favourite chocolates, which are okay to enjoy now and then!

Hey Shell, do you still feel like yelling, kicking and screaming? I might join you! I am tired of my mental health and my fibromyalgia and general back pain. I'm now having to look for work as well, I certainly feel like screaming out and smashing things some days.

In the beginning of August I have an appointment to see a new psychologist, I will be driving almost 2 hours to reach the main office for the first consult, then next time I will only have a 3/4 hour drive to see the person! I am wondering if it is even worth it!

Centrelink have hooked me up with a disability worker. She can call me any time to say I have an appointment or an interview to attend. It is difficult to make any kind of plans in advance as I have no idea if I will be free or not.

I'm not doing flexible too well at present. Guess I am going to have to get used to it all and not get too hung up on the process.

Cheers all from Mrs. D.

[velvetfaerie]

Hey Shell,

Yes I was warm and cosy. I actually had a decent sleep for the first time this week without chemical sedatives also. Even though I feel very sad I am ok. One day at a time. It is really hard to be in love with someone who definitely was in love with me but his circumstances tore us apart. REALLY bitter pill to swallow. But I can't make him do anything. I can just vote with my feet and say "no more. Bye." He needs his depression sorted ! GRAR LOL.

You are such a warm and caring person. One after my own heart even if I can come off as abrasive. I am like that at times to keep people away. Every time I let someone close they hurt me.

LOL I am a very expressive person. Gets me into trouble at work occasionally.

I think the gym helped me lots. Amongst my good people who know me, know I have issues and are always there for me.

Dools - 2 hours drive one way! WOW!

Ladies - want to do the whole yell and rant and smashing things together? I am in !

Velv.

[Guest_9809]

Oh yeah ....... I'll be in on that too Velv and Mrs Dools! With Shell and I, that makes at least 4. I reckon we could work up quite a frenzy between all of us. I hope the mods are prepared for a bit of racket coming from this here thread. Ha ha ha .......... (-:

Morning Shell, Mrs Dools and Velv, and anybody else looking in. I hope today treats you well. Oh and Mrs Dools, I got the chocolates you sent to me by default. Thanks.

Taurus xx