Just want to Shout out

[Guest_1055]

I am just so tired, and I don't think I can try anymore. All I want to do is curl up tight and cry and cry. I am sick of this, and I even feel cross, as I said that. I can't do this, I just can't. And I don't think I want to anymore. I am not asking for any advice really and I am aware of the phone numbers and such., etc. But I just want to shout and shout out loud and say that I am plain sick of this. I am tired of struggling to get to where ever it is that I am going. I don't think I am making any sense either. So since I am unable to shout out in real life at the moment. I hope it is okay with whoever who reads this that I am virtually going to shout out now. I also feel like punching out, because it is just too much. It's too much.

I HATE THIS, JUST HATE IT. I AM TIRED OF FAILING AND FAILING. I JUST WANT TO GO.

[Croix]

Dear Shell~

Feeling down and sick of it all happens. We all here know the feeling which if nothing else gives us a measure of understanding of what you are going though. By all means scream, cry, shout (even rude words), drum your heels in rage and frustration.

My psych says it's not the ups and downs we are handed by life so much as being able to bounce back that's the important thing. You have been in this place before and will remember getting though and out hte other side.

Croix

[Quercus]

Hi Shell,

Energetic music. On very loud. Headphones. A dark room. Dance. Run. Pace. Walk laps around the yard.

That's my go to when the anger, rage, trapped feelings come on. Have you tried this? If not maybe it's worth a try. I tire myself out then switch to gentle music and then a long hot shower or a bath. And a cup of tea.

Hoping this feeling passes and you can rest.

Take care of yourself please.

[velvetfaerie]

Hey shell

Hope you're ok. I like Quercus's music suggestion.

Feelingz are ok. Makes us human. I know humans who refuse to feel and they annoy me lol 😄

***hugs***

👍

[Guest_1055]

Thankyou for your words T, yes I do like the picture. I actually came across it once and picked it out for someone else. I wanted them to know how much I cared and that they were very much in my heart and thoughts.

And as far as the yelling and such, well I guess the emotion is not exploding out this morning. But I can feel something within , perhaps it is simmering or an unrest feeling. Which I don't like. I have been thinking about what is it this time that has sort of caused this? I was comtemplating writing a list. But even this is frustrating me , the lack of being able to make a decision as to whether write a list or not write a list.

Shell xx

[Guest_1055]

Hi Mr Croix,

Thankyou for your understanding heart. And you are right , now that you have reminded me, I think I do bounce back.

Shell xx

[Guest_1055]

Ah dear Quercus... yes I do listen to music on my iPod. And I do go to the gym and work out there, and it does normally help with the anger and such. I could not get to the gym yesterday, because I just could not be bothered with it. It seemed like such an effort.

Shell xx

[Guest_1055]

Hi Velve,

I think I was starting to miss you . I have not been posting on the walking and exercise thread as my words just did not seem to flow or something.

I will be okay. And yes I agree feelings make us human. Sometimes I fear being a human. I think you said something similar to this once, that you were like this also. I do not know why I am like that. Perhaps it is because I was not allowed to show any emotion while growing up.

Aw thanks for the hug, truly needed one.

Shell xx

[velvetfaerie]

I'm sick of poor sleep. I'm sick of being upset and stressed and exhausted. I've been such a mess this week I've been unable to drag myself to the gym.

I want it all to go away but sadly it won't ATM.

I also think I hate him for helping put me in this emotional mess.

velvz.

[Guest_128]

I am so angry,really bad.

my thread obsessive love disorder

Later

[Guest_1055]

Ah Velv,

I am sorry you are hurting. Hug big time... Lack of quality sleep , well that just makes everything seem worse or something.

I have been hesitant to say this because I do not want to offend you or bring you further emotional distress. But Velv, have you considered letting this man go?

You are precious and worthy of being in a relationship where the man will treat you as such.

Hugs

Shell xx