Just want to Shout out

[Guest_1055]

I am just so tired, and I don't think I can try anymore. All I want to do is curl up tight and cry and cry. I am sick of this, and I even feel cross, as I said that. I can't do this, I just can't. And I don't think I want to anymore. I am not asking for any advice really and I am aware of the phone numbers and such., etc. But I just want to shout and shout out loud and say that I am plain sick of this. I am tired of struggling to get to where ever it is that I am going. I don't think I am making any sense either. So since I am unable to shout out in real life at the moment. I hope it is okay with whoever who reads this that I am virtually going to shout out now. I also feel like punching out, because it is just too much. It's too much.

I HATE THIS, JUST HATE IT. I AM TIRED OF FAILING AND FAILING. I JUST WANT TO GO.

[Wheremengo]

Go nuts don't worry what people think if you drive a car turn up the radio and join in.

[MarkJT]

Dam straight Wheremengo, i often sit at the lights, look sideways and see the people next to me laughing as i am jamming away. Love it.

[Guest_1055]

Hi Mark, you did enjoy it, your enthusiasm is jumping off the screen. I cannot imagine the loudness of all the cheering. But I am thinking the footballers would have heard it all then and maybe it urges them on. I have never been to a football game at all. I am not the sporty type but do like to exercise like walking, going to the gym ( which I only started late last year).

I too sing whilst driving along, but only if I am by myself. I have screamed and shouted out from inside the car too. When I get frustrated from other things that are happening.

In case you wanted to know , I am feeling a bit more.....mmm what's the word? Peaceful.

Hope you are okay.....

Shell

[Guest_1055]

A friendly welcome to you Wheremengo. It appears you are newish to Beyond Blue.

Go nuts.....I like that, just be free and yes who cares what the others in the beside vehicle may be thinking. I would so love to be like that all the time in all circumstances. I do sing in the car, with the volume up. Only by myself.

Hope you are alright there. And if that is you in your profile picture.... well you look happy. And that is a beautiful ocean you are facing.

Thanks for posting in here, your post is a nice fun and light hearted one. I liked it.

Shell

[Croix]

Dear Shell~

you said:

I would like to read more of your happy memories too, so I hope you post more.

Your wish is my command - done.

Croix (whose brain is emptying as he write his memories down 🙂

[monkey_magic]

Hi shell,

Just wanting to check in to say hi : hope u r doing things to lift your spirits like walking & hope u r doing well...

[Guest_1055]

Hello Croix,

Hope you are coming along okay today...

Haha...."You wish is my command", Mmmm I have never had that said to me before Croix. I almost feel like I should bow like a royal princess or something in appreciation to you words.

Anyway I shall take a look at your happy memory

Shell xx

[Guest_1055]

Hello dear Steph,

That is kind of you to pop in and check up on me. And a friendly hi back. And actually here is a hug for you also, just in case you need one.

I haven't done a lot of walking but I have been going to the gym , it has been a challenge to motivate myself to go. But once I have finished a workout, I do feel a bit better on the inside.

I have been having moments of peacefulness, and moments of crying. Currently I am just lying here with thoughts of I need to move and physically do something. So yeah that's me. I am now hearing the post man ride up to our letterbox on his motorbike. So perhaps I shall go so what mail we have.....It might be something good.

And Steph, I hope you remember how precious you are. ( I read your words on your thread "domestic violence") And a woman that is worthy to be treasured.

Hope you are having a good day there.

Love

Shell xx

[monkey_magic]

Ha,u sound like me. I'm always feeling like I need to b more active. I think we could b scared of what emotions could pop up if we really exert ourselves lol...well that's me anyway...

Thanks for the hug & one back for you....

[Guest_9809]

Hello there Shell.

It sounds as though you are getting a bit of a handle on that depression of yours. Moments of peacefullness is a good thing, far better than tears and blackness all day long.

I am very proud of you for doing so well with your exercise. I agree that challenging ourselves to actually do it is the hard part. And it sounds as though you are doing far better than I have been. But I do hope to push myself to improve on that score over the coming weeks. I know it will benefit me, I just have to do it.

Collecting the mail ... I am about to do the exact same thing. Only our mail comes via a 4WD ute, as we live in a rural setting where they dont deliver via the little town postie bikes. I hope you got something good, rather than just the usual 'window' mail containing household bills?

Shell I wanted to let you know that I read your poem today on the poetry thread. Love it.

And you too Steph, I read a couple of poems from you today as well. Although I cant recall if they were also on the poetry thread or if I read them on your DV thread. Anyway its good to see that you are keeping busy. Well done, poignant stuff.

Okay I'm off to collect my mail.

Taurus xx