Hi again - I'm not asking for sympathy nor understanding, a chat perhaps. I met an amazing lady about 2yrs ago and she took me in and cared for me amazingly. I was still seeing a lady that I'd spent time with previously but didn't and don't love at all, it was just companionship. I did the worse thing ever and slept with her again. Absolutely no idea why and I have regretted every second since. My partner who I just love beyond belief found out and we have been trying to work things out. The only thing is she has a really hard time dealing with it at times. For the past 2yrs it will be mentioned or more questions and it turns into a nightmare for me. I have done everything I can to write this horrible wrong but cant seem to get the chance to move on. About 3 weeks ago it came up again and out of frustration I've started harming myself because its something that keeps hitting in the face and just wont go away. I deserve everything I'm getting and dealing with but need it to go away (not forgotten) so we can both hopefully enjoy everything in front of us.
Sophies given some links for you to read- if you are still having trouble. basically in the tabs section where it says- my threads, all posts, new posts...
you can either click on new posts and take a read of some of those and join in where you think you could help/support, or click in all posts and take a look through the sections and itll bring up all the threads that way
Life is hard at times - but I've made my bed I need to lie in it, just need to deal with what comes my way better. The children side of things are improving and seem steady At the end of the day they are all that really counts to me.
