Hi again - I'm not asking for sympathy nor understanding, a chat perhaps. I met an amazing lady about 2yrs ago and she took me in and cared for me amazingly. I was still seeing a lady that I'd spent time with previously but didn't and don't love at all, it was just companionship. I did the worse thing ever and slept with her again. Absolutely no idea why and I have regretted every second since. My partner who I just love beyond belief found out and we have been trying to work things out. The only thing is she has a really hard time dealing with it at times. For the past 2yrs it will be mentioned or more questions and it turns into a nightmare for me. I have done everything I can to write this horrible wrong but cant seem to get the chance to move on. About 3 weeks ago it came up again and out of frustration I've started harming myself because its something that keeps hitting in the face and just wont go away. I deserve everything I'm getting and dealing with but need it to go away (not forgotten) so we can both hopefully enjoy everything in front of us.
my anxiety and depression makes things really hard for me to concentrate but when i hit the zone i can be in it for hours and its really productive. having the subjects im interested in too helps. my second course wasnt really that interesting but i was determined to finish it and not flunk out this time. so ive completed it. just have to get the results now.
i hope your able to get to see your kids and go out for dinner through the week with them..
is there a favourite type of food you like to have on these occassions? like a special treat?
Its important to remain interested in what your studying and keeping in mind why you first choose to do it. When things aren't going well try not to panic knowing that the time will come when you will get stuck into it and be very productive.
No real favourite type meal although I do make a great pizza. Cheaper than going out too.
yeah thats my downfall i panic when i fall behind. i was behind in 2 modules due to my accident and couldnt keep up but in the two days ive been ok i caught up and finsihed it all.
Guest we both hold and hug each other very tight and for very long periods. When things are good they are good, but when they turn bad its absolutely cruel and heartbreaking being reminded what I did and how much hurt I've caused to many. At what point can I start to move forward and try and believe in myself again?
Not a specific type of pizza - I normally go onion, capsicum, tomato, ham, pineapple, rocket, cheese etc
