Im new. Unsure how to start.

[Sapphire_]

Hello. Im new. I dont really know where to start. My heart is pounding, Im so anxious to be on here. Im not sure if its the right thing to do. I've never spoken to anyone about how i feel or anything. Even my husband. I just cant. I dont really know what i am supposes to do. I feel so alone and lost.

[startingnew]

aww big hugs Sapphire xoxo

i hope today has been a little better for you xox

[startingnew]

Hi Sapphire just popping in to wish you a good day and hoping its a little easier for you xoxo

And also i agree with above posts about meds. Taking them doesnt mean your a failure at all. Most people on these forums take them to help with mh issues. In time im sure youll be able to go off them but work on becoming more stable (for long periods of time) and getting well again first.

Are you still seeing your psychologist and attending the dbt group? Sorry if youve written that icant go back a page without loosing this post.

Ill leave it there for now. Hope you can check in soon. Xoxo

Hi DB and Grandy- if you guys are reading would you be up for helping Chloe even just pop ins. Shes having a little bit of a hard time atm but no pressure. Wishing you both a lovely day too and hoping your colds getting better xoxoxo

[Sapphire_]

Hello Deebi, Grandy, Starts and everyone.

Sorry I havent replied until now. Ive been unwell.

Im doing all i can to pick myself up again. I have to keep reminding myself im not alone. That i dont need to do this on my own. Im trying to do the opposite of how im feeling which is oh so hard. Just wanna lay in bed all day everyday but ive been making myself get up and do small things.

Its hard not to listen to those thoughts. Especially when they are persistent. Just gotta keep trying.

Im still taking my meds. Its been about a week now. Still really up and down..all over the place really. Gotta give it time to start working again i suppose.

Xx

[startingnew]

Hi Sapphire

its good to hear from you, sorry youve been unwell though.

no, your not alone youve got all us here and your supports offline too that im hoping you are still using..... yes unfortunatey meds can take 4-6 weeks to get into the system properly but i hope you notice the difference in a shorter time frame

Baby steps is all it takes to keep moving forward. each day you get through even if your in surival mode is a win and a step forward.

hugs xox

[Ggrand]

Hello Sapphire,

Firstly I want to say how very proud I am of you for saying these words..."

Im doing all i can to pick myself up again. I have to keep reminding myself im not alone. That i dont need to do this on my own. Im trying to do the opposite of how im feeling which is oh so hard. Just wanna lay in bed all day everyday but ive been making myself get up and do small things."".

Your not alone Sapphire, we care for you... You are so very brave Sapphire, I said a while back that I admire you a lot..That's the truth Sweetheart, you're a fighter.. I'm so glad to hear that your continuing your meds, Please have patients I hope they start giving relief soon. as Startingnew said..it takes 4-6 weeks, hang in there, Sapphire, we all got your hands..

Please if you can keep us updated, and keep talking.

Warm hugs 🤗 🤗🤗..

Grandy..

[demonblaster]

Hey darl good to see you, thanks for keeping in touch

Sounds like you're finding your fire again hun. Take your time chooks, it's really good to see. No pressure and as Starts said every days a win

Hope you're feeling better or at least on the mend.

Keep at it lovey we're behind you too 💙🤗

🌿

[Ggrand]

Hello Sapphire..

I just want to make a visit to you and see how your feeling..I hope your doing ok, I really do sweetheart..

i bought you a few little things to help you know that we all care about you....🕊Peace,🤗 ,hugs,🌹Beauty,❤️Care,..

Saphhire, Please be okay, you are stronger then you think,

How are you feeling ?

Big warm hugs 🤗 that,

Please know that you are so very cared for, loved/liked, here on these forums.

Grandy..xx

[Sapphire_]

Hello Grandy, Deebi, Starts and all.

Today i have tried to be a bit proactive about my future. Trying to create a future. So i reenrolled into uni. Now my anxiety is so high. What if im not ready to go back to uni. Have i made a huge mistake. Maybe i should have leftnit longer. Seriously i am freaking out.

Still in a downer. Just want to be normal again. I know i cant force it but i just am so over it. I want to be happy. I dont think going back to uni is going to change the way i feel. Just something to look forward to i guess. Am hoping my meds will be sorted by then too as i have troubles remembering things and words. Its like i have dementia...

Hope your all well. Am planning on stopping by your threads later on today/night.

X

[startingnew]

Hi Sapphire

take a few deep breaths ........

thats really great about re-enrolling 🙂 its hard to know when the right time is but theres options like deferring or going part time to help you get through it too.

is it online or at a uni (or mixed)? what area of study are you going to do?

remember uni/tafe has supports there too if you get stuck and need help. you wont have to do it all alone.

hope your meds get into your system soon so they can start to take more effect. did you find the meds helpful for your concentration when you were on them previously?

[Ggrand]

Hello Sapphire,

Thats really great news, enrolling in uni..congratulations, you do well, meet new friends, form some friendships.. Please don't doubt you can do this...I believe that at the time you enrolled you were not being controlled by beasty..you moved ahead..Now you have time for beasty to stick his thoughts into your head, you are doubting yourself....Please don't..

When you enrolled you were in control of your thoughts..well done..you want to get well..you want to move forward..you took control of your future on your own...That is Gold Sapphire..

There are support workers, councilling at uni, they are there for you to talk to...oh I'm just so pleased that you took a big step forward...

Please, keep taking your meds under your dr supervision off coarse.. I hope you are starting to feel better Sapphire.. I'm always here for you as are the other lovelies...

Warm and caring hugs,

Grandy..