Im new. Unsure how to start.

[Sapphire_]

Hello. Im new. I dont really know where to start. My heart is pounding, Im so anxious to be on here. Im not sure if its the right thing to do. I've never spoken to anyone about how i feel or anything. Even my husband. I just cant. I dont really know what i am supposes to do. I feel so alone and lost.

[Sapphire_]

Thanks Starts and Deebi.

I just took my anxiety meds and laying in bed. Im so tired. I feel as though i could sleep and eternity.

Thanks for the support. Im going to try get some sleep. Night all

[startingnew]

goodnight Sapphire i hope sleep gives you some reprieve xox

[Ggrand]

Hello Sapphire,

Thank you for letting us know that your okay.

Good Night Sapphire, I'm please you took some anxiety meds, I'm proud of you for doing that..

Sleep well sweetheart and remember that we all care for you and we're all here for you..

Warm and caring hugs 🤗🤗.

Grandy..

[startingnew]

hi Sapphire

i hope todays a better day for you. thinking of you xo

[Sapphire_]

Thanks Grandy and Starts 💜

I feel like a bit of a failure taking my meds again. I wanted so much to be able to do it on my own and naturally. Its not meant to be i guess.

I brought my psych appointment forward to this arvo. Since i cant make it on thursday. Im a bit scared. I feel like im failing everything and all my skills have just flown out the window. Its hard to put them in place when your in so much distress and sunk so low.

I got 9hrs sleep and woke up with a nightmare at about 3am. All hot and sweaty and bedding all over the place again. Ended up getting out of bed and sitting out side having a smoke and went back to bed for a further 5hrs. Most ive slept for a long time.

Im currently preparing myself to go to the shop. My neighbor is going with me so if i freak out i have her with me.

Hope your all having a peaceful day.

💙💖💜

[Ggrand]

Hello Sapphire,

Ringing your Psych and taking ADs...Im so very proud of you. If you were here I'd give you a really big hug..

Sapphire, We need our meds, if we want a bit of quality in our lives, we need them..No one not even you want the pain that you just went through ADs help stop that pain, like pain relief help stop headaches, etc.. That's the way I look at it..

I hope your psych visit turns out beneficial to you and your totally open and honest with him/her..

Looking forward to hearing from you..

Warm hugs,

Grandy.

[demonblaster]

So glad you got some sleep Sapphire hi darl 🤗 hopefully now your bodies starting to relax and you'll get more, you so need it and life will be easier you're getting your strength back.

Good you saw psych today hope you're feeling some release. You're doing the right things good on you ☺

Shopping good having someone with you I imagine that would be a good comfort to you. It may not feel like it at the time but it's a change of scenery and the drive there and back too. Shifts mind focus.

Thanks for letting us know where you're at. We do care about you darl

🐧.. cute or what. What shall we call her ..something gentle and lovable.

Cya later huns 🤗

[Sapphire_]

Thanks Grandy and Deebi.

Today has been emotionally difficult. Had a panic attack in the shop. Then again at my friends house and again on my way to my psych appointment.

Psych appointment was taxing. Had to do a chain of events analysis. Im not actually sure what the point was. It was very distressing. I found myself getting angry at all the questions. She wants me to see the psychiatrist also to get my meds figured out since she knows that has been bothering me a lot.

Im off to bed shortly. Taken my anxiety meds. Hopefully they start to kick in soon. Lets hope tonights sleep is a bit better with no nightmares.

Love and hugs to you all. Take care xx

[demonblaster]

Hey darl and all ☺

Sorry hearing of your anxiety attacks Sapphire it's exhausting and frightening and always remember hun you got through them you did well now they're behind you

As we know in this deep it all gets too much what can help is thinking about other things to give less room for upsetting thoughts maybe think about how happy your friend was and you for her at the wedding, dancing, your blanket you're closer to finishing, your dog, a lovely sunny day 🌹

Hope you get a good sleep tonight darls and glad you're back on meds

Nigh nite hun 🤗💗💙

[Ggrand]

Hello Sapphire,

Awe sorry about the panick attacks Sapphire, they really are scarey, and as Deebi said, there gone now, you done great by getting through them..Well done..

I loved hearing again that your taking your meds, maybe not sure but..they might take a week to start working properly so, hang on to us if you need to, were always here for you..

Your strong Sapphire, I've heard it in you, you can get well again. I know you can, I believe in you sweetheart, please believe in yourself..

I hope you sleep well tonight and I hope when you wake up to a new day tomorrow, that it's better then today was..

Warm and caring hugs 🤗

Grandy.