Im new. Unsure how to start.

[Sapphire_]

Hello. Im new. I dont really know where to start. My heart is pounding, Im so anxious to be on here. Im not sure if its the right thing to do. I've never spoken to anyone about how i feel or anything. Even my husband. I just cant. I dont really know what i am supposes to do. I feel so alone and lost.

[demonblaster]

Hey Sapphire Needlove Starts & all

Good cya Sapphire, sorry to hear echo to Starts hope answers from CT & easy fix with luck

Hun rough patch atm stepping back for bit to work through. Listening & will be back sometime

Best wishes for better recovery ahead xx

[demonblaster]

Needlove hi darl sorry to hear, you're sounding very pained

As Starts said not pushing you away from here but if you do want to do a thread in case you're not sure how go to "All posts" probs depression section at top R) new thread.

If you tell us here the thread title some of us maybe able to jump in & support you also others might too.

Also suggesting check out other threads that relate to how you feel, hearing others experiences can be beneficial & you also get to meet more people who in turn might talk more in your thread. Your space where you can talk as often as you like.

Majority up to 90+% listen but dont post

You're not alone hun ☺

[Sapphire_]

Demonblaster, I hope youve been taking care of yourself and are feeling better since your last post here. Im thinking of you xx

Startingnew, thankyou. You always know what to say. I hope your well. Xx

I am still unwell and in pain a lot. I think I am starting to regret my decision to have the op. Mentally not doing well either. Im just over it. Fed up with everything. I guess im just feeling sorry for myself. I just dont have the energy anymore.

Needlove, I hope you've made a post and have found some support here. BB has really helped me a lot. Everyone on here is amazing and have great advice.

[startingnew]

afternoon Sapphire xox

m sorry your still unwell and in pain, has there been any answers given to you as to why your still feeling like this? after a surgury it can take a while to come good though. i hope that time comes for you really soon.

an your gp give you some pain specific or stronger meds to help you deal with the pain?

im in the same boat atm. physical and mental stuff goes hand in hand, a decline in either of those esp dramatically can make the other one go down the plug hole too

ending lots of hugs and well wishes xox

[demonblaster]

Thx Sapphire good cya

Sorry to hear bout the pain yeah thats right post op it can take a while

Did CT scan show anything?

You've been through a lot & physical pain saps the energy, when you pick up pain wise hoping you'll not be regretting op.

The outcome will be worth all this from what I've heard.

Thx for touching base hun

[Sapphire_]

Thanks Startingnew and Demonblaster.

The CT showed nothing apparently. However today the paid subsided a bit. So thats been good.

Now i have the new added trouble of getting the people in my life to stop eatting junk food infront of me. Coming home and finding everyone eating junk is not nice. And then being told to get of my high horse because i was annoyed at them. Maybe i dont have a right to tell them what to eat or even ask that they dont eat it infront of me. It just makes me feel like my hubby doesn't spport me. Am i being ridiculous and whiny? Maybe i should do as they say and get over myself...

[Sapphire_]

Hey all.

CT scan showed nothing. So Ive just been putting up with the pain hoping its just recovery pains. It has been getting better though so thats a good thing. Still sick off and on but that should be expected i guess. It has been super hard for me mentally. I was on the verge of having a major melt down a few days ago. Now im just blah...

Christmas is in a few days and im a total grinch! I just wanna be left alone. Are you guys ready for Christmas?

Xx

[demonblaster]

Good to hear it's easing a bit Sapphire

Body goes through a lot with surgery & pain, takes time

Hard feeling that way. Overall you're way better than early days here aye, look how far you've come. Grit

Yeah darl sorted for Xmas

[74_Big_Dazza]

Hi Saphire.

I'm new here myself hon but the folks here are so supportive.

It hurts to know that you feel this way about your life direction but please come here as much as possible.

Things can only get better my darling. I have been suffering alone for so long and being here was one of the hardest things that I have done.

But after only 2 weeks and reading so much positive waves and the support nework available, I have been reinvigorated!

Please don't give up. You are not the failure you think you are.

The deepest regret you can harbor is knowing you could’ve done something, but out of fear refused to.

Give it a go sweetheart. The outcome may surprise you 😁

[Sapphire_]

Thanks DB and Dazza. ❤

I've been on here since the mid year. I think. I've decided I dont want to be on meds anymore so am going off them. I hate taking the medications and think its for the best. Im not gonna tell my hubby though because he thinks i need them. I feel like im getting better and dont need them. Besides i feel like they make me airheady.

Christmas has been difficult. Its hard to fake being happy again but its what the family want so i just smile and go along. Maybe it would be different if i could have children. Who knows... Thank goodness christmas is over.