Im new. Unsure how to start.

[Sapphire_]

Hello. Im new. I dont really know where to start. My heart is pounding, Im so anxious to be on here. Im not sure if its the right thing to do. I've never spoken to anyone about how i feel or anything. Even my husband. I just cant. I dont really know what i am supposes to do. I feel so alone and lost.

[startingnew]

hey Sapphire, i was there for 2 weeks mainly for psychological problems (decided that being on tis earth was the best thing so got help) and also had a kidney infection and pneumonia so it was all treated in there at the same time. im getting better now and in a better mh state.

i can relate so much to the nightmares, esp the vividness of them so i do understand. i do reccomend trying to contact a psych though as they can help you wiht your thoughts and feelings. try and stay on the right path and accept help, you deserve the help so try to take whats offerred so that you dont shut down.

we are here for you each step of the way and its been a pleasure to have met you, ive been following your story from day one and i can see progress happening despite you haveing a really hard patch there for a while.

xoxoxoxox

[Sapphire_]

Im glad your in a better state of mind and have recovered from pneumonia. All of that must have been super hard to deal with all at once. Im amazed at hownyou can help others when you have so much going on yourself, the same with everyone else here that has helped me. I know everyone on here struggles with their own problems too. I just dont know how you all do it. I can barely keep myself together let alone giving advice. So cudos to you and everyone else thats helped me. Your all amazing.

I decided to drag myself out of the house and am now sitting under my huge tree watching my dog sleep and listening to the leaves blow in the wind. For now the nightmares have left me alone to be at peace with nature.

[demonblaster]

Hey Sapphire good cya hey Starts good advice hun hi all ☺

The nightmares I imagine would be a release for stress Sapphire how awful.

Impressed you forcing to go outside under tree & in wind sounds soothing, & that it eased off thoughts maybe keep it in memory & call on it when you stressed.

Your don't have to say. What surgery? Not long now darl, time never stops so soon you'll be looking back on it. They're amazing what they can do these days, you'll be in good hands.

I was an EN (enrolled nurse 1 yr training then) & before training an ain (assistant in nursing). They're very good & know their stuff. You'll be looked after hun.

Ok better go into biggly sleep

Best to you darl xx

[demonblaster]

Cool just had look back & stumbled on your surgery might have missed that post some land later or memory, lack of 😃

Elective surgery for weight loss, hey let us know how you go. Good on you.

Very close friend goin to have a sleeve near future, shes done well with good shakes these work but others not so much & lost 20 ish kg's, proud of her.

I've lost 50kg's have another 20 ish to go.

Cya darl

[Sapphire_]

Thanks Demonblaster.

I do love the sound of wind through trees or on the water with the waves. So i guess that i will have to make that part of my plan. To sit oit in the breeze when im feeling stressed and overwhelmed.

Im looking forward to my surgery. Ive wanted it for a long time. Im a bad yoyo dieter and my weight is a huge issue for me.

These bad dreams and nightmares are so exhausting. I wake up feeling like i havent slept for days. Feel so run down from them. Wish they would stop.

Im going to try make myself contact the psych today to make an appointment. I just cant be bothered with it tbh i just dont see the point.

[demonblaster]

Good I know your messy atm but overall you're sounding like you're slowly picking up.

Sooo happy & proud of you, fro, where you were.

Survival aye, you've got your strength working, the beast fights hard but as long as we keep at our fight or win over it as some say as opposed to fight

Yeah interrupted sleep really affects us & brings on more stress

Keep fighting the good fight darl you're on your way up

Xx

[Sapphire_]

Thank you ❤ youve been so helpful to me. I couldn't have coped without the support of everyone here.

Now that my op is only 5 days away i am terrified and feel my anxiety rising. Have to remember the end results.

[startingnew]

Hi Sapphire

Ido apologise for my delayed responses. (Still recovering)

I glad taking your dog out helped you. Maybe with your anxiety high you could go watch the waves with your pooch? It helped before so might help again.....

Your op isnt too far away now and its understandable to be nervous. Keep that end goal in mind and when things start to get tough use that as a reminder.

You have been through alot the past few months. Try not to be too hard on yourself. Use the skills youve learnt to help yourself manage and youll become stronger and one day might see what we can see in you.

Its hard to look at oursleves when we would rather run but sometimes to look forward you have to look back. In saying that dont go there if it brings back too many memories. Going wayy off track here lol but the point is your making progress and we can see it.

Keep your head held high because your worth it

❤❤❤❤

[demonblaster]

Hi Sapphire (love that name, don't even abbreviate & I do mostly, sshhhh don't tell anyone being lazy lol)

Darlin I've gotta fair idea but what terrifies you? re the op and it's nearly here, and great to see that fight in you, as our darling Starts (( souls )) said look how far you've come from where you were. Stepping up girl, way to go. So happy for you.

Remember too time doesn't stop so you'll be looking back on the op and in a better place, all part of getting back up towards peace and happiness.

Is it a sleeve or ? can't think of the other one, soz if you've said, brains on strike 😄

All best hun, looking forward to hearing progress but don't stress, just when you're ready darls 🙂

Starts, magic post, and you too ahead will be seeing what we see in you my girl. My goal to show you, Peps too. We need self belief, the beast doesn't want us to have it, that's IT's prob aye.

(((( soul hugs for whoever wants them )))

[startingnew]

Db loveley im getting to your thread. I need my comp. So hard on a phone!