Im new. Unsure how to start.

[Sapphire_]

Hello. Im new. I dont really know where to start. My heart is pounding, Im so anxious to be on here. Im not sure if its the right thing to do. I've never spoken to anyone about how i feel or anything. Even my husband. I just cant. I dont really know what i am supposes to do. I feel so alone and lost.

[startingnew]

hi sapphire

i hope todays is going well for you and your psych appointment goes well

we are here for you

sending lots of hugs

xoxox

[Just Sara]

Here for you when you return; hope all goes well today hun.

Sez x

[Sapphire_]

Ive got bad news. Ive been in the ED since last night. Ive been detained under the mental health act. I have no idea whats going to happen. I feel like such an idiot.

I have to have a minder 24/7. Im not allowed to even go to the bathroom on my own. Im not allowed a smoke either!

[startingnew]

when i was under the mental health act it was the same for me. wasnt allowed to go any where myself or do anything. in a way it was a good thing becasue i wasnt dangering myself or anyone else for that matter.

im not really sure what will happen now, they might be able to put you into a long hospital stay mh ward to get everything sorted out for you

[Sapphire_]

Im so scared. I dont even know whats going to happen now.

[startingnew]

thats ok to be scared. i get it, ive been there a few times. they will be trying to work out whats best for you since youve had many admissions in such a short amount of time so they will need to reassess and find what will work and what they can help you with more.

[demonblaster]

Sweetheart it's understandable to be scared, it's terrifying being so damned low

I'm seeing this as a start to a new better beginning, as STARTING said because you've been in often recently they'll have to review and get you the help you need.

I've been thinking about you & things you've expressed about not wanting to open up I imagine becaus it's going to hurt and you feel it'll pull you down more, I think it was STARWOLF wisely said it's necessary so you can work through with help and come out the other (Better) side.
Where you are atm it's hard to believe, but you can and will

Don't hold back sweet, the more they know, the more they can help.

Believe hun

We're with you all the way

Thoughts and care ((( feel the hugs and take the energy )))

[Sapphire_]

I was released yesterday with an safety plan. It was my birthday yesterday and the psychologist said he wsnted me to remember my birthday as something good not something bad. So i am now at home. I have someone from crisis care coming to visit me shortly. They are coming everydag until i start with a new therapist. Which is on thursday.

Im just glad i can go to the bathroom on my own without someone watching me. My sister is staying with me now too so i am not alone while my hubby is at work.

Hopefully this has started a better plan for me and will finally get the help I need.

[demonblaster]

Oh YEAH Sapphire this is great news all round, Yes I think this is the beginning of recovery

Yeah it'll take time and work but it's taken up a lot of your time and been hard work, so it'll be rewarding starting to shed and see the light trickling in and in time you'll be looking back on these days from a better place darlin (( ))

Very good what the psych said about not remembering your B.day as a bad thing, actually you could go opposite and remember it as the time that you're healing journey began

Thoughts and care

Always here for you

[Starwolf]

So relieved to know a safety plan is now in place and that you don't have to spend so much time alone. It is usually when negativity takes over, isn't it ?

As DB said, let this B'day be a rebirth.