I so lonely 😭 and I am tired of this

[Unicorndogge]

I don’t know how to start this but I am sick and tired of having no one to talk to and nothing to do. I sit at home and just do written jobs. No one even cares if I sit on my own all day.I have tried to talk to people that i went to school with but none of them have even showed any interest, I am so desperate. I cry myself to sleep most nights I can’t sleep because what’s the point. I am good at nothing which makes me un- useful. None of this youth groups can help me and my consular doesn’t know how to help either. I am so scared of what I have become, 20 and I have no friends or job even worse no one likes me. I just think what is the point of living when there is nothing to live for, this is cruel world. If anyone is reading this I am not forcing you to answer but if you do Thankyou very much.

[Guest_4643]

hey Hayley.

you're welcome, I hope I helped you somehow. you're not the only one, I feel the same way you do every day. I want to do stupid things to myself but I'm too scared. I'm caught in so many mixed emotions.

I know how you feel about you saying it feels like it's the end for you, but it isn't. I feel like it is for me too.

I wish I could give you a hug and support you in person, I'm so sorry you're feeling this way.

Feel free to message me on this thread (well comment) and the posts I've made myself, some should be in suicide and self harm (the moderators put it there), and some in the therapists and treatment sections.

I hope you're okay, please stay safe. I'm thinking of you.

Love and hugs (wish I could hug you in person and try and cheer you up),

Tayla xx

[Unicorndogge]

hi sarah

i am too old for a sporting team and i don't know what i like

nothing is going to become good

no one is ever going to want me

i not good for anything

i am a waste of time and effort

[Guest_4643]

you're NONE of that Hayley, I promise you. I really do mean that.

you're not too old to do anything like sport or whatever you wish. it's normal not to find your interests for a while.

things ARE and WILL become good for you.

people DO and WILL want you, I do as a friend!

you ARE good for everything.

you're NOT a waste of time and effort.

I know it sounds a bit hypocritical since I put myself down everyday and say these things and worse things to myself but please believe me.

I really wish I could be your friend in person and give you a hug and other support, I'm sorry that I can't. I hope I'm helping you and others here somehow though.

Big hugs and much love, please be OK, safe and take care. I'm thinking of you and sympathising with you a lot.

Tayla xx

[Sophie_M]

Hi Hayley,
It sounds like things are very overwhelming at the moment, but please know that you are not alone in this. We're so sorry that you're in such a tough space right now, but our community is here to work through this with you. We are also contacting you through email with some additional support, things really can get better. We're all here for you. 

 

[Aaronsis]

Good Morning Hayley and to you too Tayla
Just thought I would jump on here to say that I hope you both have a great day, that I am thinking of you and will be back to chat later on after my shift today. I am really excited to be volunteering and it will be people like you beautiful ladies that I will be thinking of when talking to others and sharing the love and the support for MH. Have a great day my friends.
Hugs Sarah

[Unicorndogge]

Hi Tayla

i am feeling a bit better today sorry to make you worry and i am sorry for being selfish although i am not looking forward to this weekend all by myself, i hardly put up with it yesterday.

[Guest_4643]

Hey Sarah and Hayley.

Sarah - aw that's so sweet of you, that means a lot to me. Thank you so very much. I feel the same way about you and Hayley. I wish I could meet you both in person somehow and give you both a hug and support.

Hayley - don't be sorry at all! I totally understand. I'm sorry you're feeling so alone, I know how you feel. I often don't think before I say and do stuff and have depressive episodes often so I understand, you don't need be sorry. It's common.

I hope I can support both of you in some ways. Good luck on your shift today Sarah.

Please be safe both of you, I'm thinking of you two. Please take care and be OK.

PS - hi Sophie, nice to see you here as a moderator. Thank you for posting and trying to cheer us up also, especially Hayley since it's her post. Hope to see you around also xx

Much love and big hugs to you both, and to you aswell Sophie xx

- Tayla xo

[smallwolf]

What are you doing this weekend?

Other than here, I have some reading to do, shopping (done), afternoon nap. Might get some more rain here.

@Tayla - it is not hypocritical of you - I am exactly the same. We can tell others things will be OK, accept mistakes, etc. but when it comes to us it is a totally different story. Mine are related to being "not dumb" which may make it sound less than it is.

[Unicorndogge]

why is everyone happy today?

expect me

coz i am a loner

@smallwolf: not doing anything today, just sitting my room playing sims trying to distract my thoughts

[Guest_4643]

hey everyone.

smallwolf: thanks for the reassurance, I appreciate it. I just feel like it is hypocritical. I try to support others and I can't support myself, ironic huh?

Unicorndogge: I'm not happy today or any day really, there may be moments when I may laugh or whatever but I don't really know what happiness is, quite sad huh? you're not a loner. if I could meet you in person and hang out with you, I would. we have a family friend here but I'd rather get on here and support everyone. I don't have anyone my own age. yeah it's been nice to see them and I'm trying to show them around and be social but I just think what's the point because I'm always shut down regardless whether I'm being serious and talking about stuff I want to discuss or not, or having a laugh.

I'm so sorry you're both struggling, I hope I can help here somehow.

Please take care both of you and be safe. Lots of love and hugs to you both,

Love,

Tayla xo