Thanks CMF
the whole taking time off work thing is stressing me out, which is the opposite of what it should be doing, work is allowing me some time to regroup if I need but the thought of that is making me more anxious
i guess taking time off is like admitting that this anxiety is a problem for me again
i like work and I like knowing what’s going on, yeah I’m one of those people that hates missing out on stuff, even though it will be nice to be home, I like going to work, I like that routine too, having a couple weeks off was supposed to be a helpful suggestion but kinda made it worse because I have to decide.
a lot happening with work too, I like what I’m doing but also see myself in another similar role with another organisation nearby, just not quite sure where I fit with anything in my life right now, at least there is one thing I can be sure of no matter what happens with everything else and that is, I’m Dad.
H and W are good, W is all better and H is doing well, those first couple months were hard on us both, especially for H being home all day, W didnt settle for anything at one stage, and we had a couple worried doctor trips thrown in there too, I was taking random days off and leaving work early to be home, but the fog is starting to lift now and things are calming down a bit, despite everything I said above about my anxiety.
W is sleeping we’ve started on a routine with him, seems to going ok, he’s happy and healthy, the main things.
Little chunker though, this kid screams during 3 second breaks while being fed, like mate, you clearly aren’t starving, as my step brother said today he has arms like a michelin man... that’s ok, there’s more to cuddle!!
