i need help please

[Jackson1994]

is there anybody there

i need some help i cant cope with this anymore please help

- jackson

[Jackson1994]

I wish my brother was here but I'm so angry at him! I miss him and I try not to be angry at him, I try to be angry at what took him instead but it's so hard.

[Jackson1994]

because he's choices are the reason he isn't here!

[CMF]

No wonder it is so hard to accept. I don't know the full story but I get your drift. You've got anger and anxiety to deal with. That sucks. You need to get the anger out but the anxiety makes us want to curl up and do nothing.

[Jackson1994]

he got himself into a big mess he couldn't get out of no matter how much we tried to help him and now he isn't here. and it hurts so much

[CMF]

Sometimes we don't realise the consequences of things we do, especially at a young age. Ok, he got into a mess, you couldn't get him out of it but he didn't do it on purpose. Whatever it wS it sounds like it became out of his control, out of anyone's control but he didn't do it on purpose, as much as it angers/hurts you he wasn't aware I think.

[CMF]

Maybe you need to find forgiveness to accept his mistake. This may help release the anger.

[Jackson1994]

He had an addiction. I don't really tell people that part that much cause people judge when they shouldn't. I try to remember not to be mad at him, be made at what took a hold of his life and ruined it. I'm sure if he could turn it all around he would of.

[Jackson1994]

and I don't want to be angry at him at all

[CMF]

Oh Jackson i'm so sorry to hear of the circumstances. You don't have to tell anyone anything. You are right your anger should be directed at the cause, not him. Unfortunately he was caught up in something that he could not control, that many cannot control. It is those that supply that we need to be angry with because they know the consequences. Hopefully your counselor can help you with the anger. Man that is a lot for you to have dealt with. You are such an awesome, caring soul. You've seen so much hurt. Redirect that anger my friend, not his fault. Here for you when you need to vent.

Cmf

[Jackson1994]

Thanks CMF.

People always think that because he got into that stuff we're a bad family, or my parents didn't do enough. Neither of those is true. We aren't a bad family, we are just a normal hard family who live in Melbourne, who are actually quite fortunate and who never ever thought this would happen. And we did so much to help him, so so much. He wasn't stuck in this cycle very long, about 18 months - 2 years. He had his good days, where we could hang out and do stuff, and his really bad days.