I just don't know anymore

[chrissy1]

I have been reading many threads, which makes me feel not so alone. I've had depression for 30 yrs. the last 5yrs have been chronic, that's why I'm in a nursing home.( no where else to go) I could not look after myself anymore. I have lost (commission unit)my unit my car and my baby dog. After many shock treatments, I am on medication which is keeping stable. I just don't have a life anymore. So alone. (Have lost my friends as I was out of action. I'm sure u guys can relate. I struggle with society that they just don't get it, what do we have to do to let them know this is REAL.( as if one could pretend with this illness) I don't think so!!! I really don't have a life

anymore. Being in a nursing home does not help cause when I leave my room I see so many older people around. It does not help my depression at all. That's all for now.thank you for ur time, looking forward to some replies.

my thread name is chrissy1 which some of you may have seen.

chrissy1

[chrissy1]

Hi Karen

thanks for ur reply. U really sound like me, I just can’t get over it. As I have said I have tried many recovery ideas. They have been short term.

like u, it’s so sad our kids don’t get it. Yes I read many forums, they are very interesting, and make me feel that I’m not alone, which is comforting. It’s raining here in Melbourne. I hope ur getting some. When it rains I feel abit better about staying in bed, I don’t feel so guilty. Please do look after ur self.

take care 💕

chrissy1

[Birdy77]

Hi Chrissy,

(waves to Grandy and Amanda and all😊)

The article you cited was pretty accurate I reckon! I liked the mention of "depressive realism" which I think is how I think, quite a lot, like, how could one not be depressed in this messed up world? I am going to try and get my hands on the book the article mentioned, The Meaning of Madness by Neel Burton.

I was dismayed to hear Rachel no longer visits ... is she able to get there at all? Is there a service at your nursing home where they take residents out on a bus for picnics and such? You might be able to put your name down for that?

What about putting your name down at the local neighbourhood centre, there are volunteers in the community who would like to visit people in nursing homes and the neighbourhood centre can arrange this, what do you think?

What colour are your nails this week? I painted mine black yesterday 😊

🌻birdy

[chrissy1]

Great to hear from you

its so hard to explain but I am the youngest in this nursing home, therefore I struggle with all older people, I’m already depressed, it just makes me feel worse.

Thank u for idea of neighbor house I will look into that, I have checked community house. My nails are hot pink, I always choose different colours every month. My daughter Rachel, is now working, her weekends are busy with her kids. She has just separated well been 12mths. I miss her very much not much I can do.

it was so nice to hear from u

take care ❤️

chrissy1

[Guest8901]

Good evening Chrissy. Sorry I havent been back to respond to your post until now. Its slack of me. Thanks for visiting and posting to my thread earlier too. Your kind words and thoughts are always very welcome. I owe a lot of other people a response there as well.

Gosh I am very sorry that Rachel is unable to visit now that she's working. I understand how that would be terribly hard for you. But I expect it would be difficult for Rachel as well.

Ahhh .. hot pink nails. Nice. 💅

Yes I imagine it would be very depressing to be considerably younger than the majority of other residents at the home. It is a problem you often hear about in the news, and one I thought they were trying to address.

Birdy made some suggestions which I hope you will follow up on. It is very important that you have the opportunity to get out and about. I know here they have volunteers who visit people in nursing homes and they take them shopping, for a cuppa or lunch, to art galleries, etc. And most nursing homes have their own buses which they take residents out for occasional outtings.

Not sure what State you live in Chrissy, but I'm NSW and its a long weekend here, with a holiday Monday. Perhaps this will mean you may get a visit from your daughter and grandkids. Hope so.

Hope you're okay. Sending you some love, care and a big hug. 🌺

Mandy 💜

[chrissy1]

Hello Mandy,

I live in Melbourne. I see ur not travelling too good. Don’t be hard on ur self, take one day at a time, that’s all we can do. I keep reading threads it’s so nice to know we are not on our own. How is Charli? It’s so good u have him. I know what it’s like. That’s all for now.

take care🐶 x💕

chrissy1

[stormcloudz]

Hi Chrissy

Found your thread! How are you doing? What are you up to today?

S

[Birdy77]

Dear Chrissy,

It Must be very difficult being so much younger in a nursing home. I once worked in a nursing home and befriended a woman there who had a brain injury, she was only in her 30s and she found it very hard, but became chummy with all us young staff members.

Do try the neighbourhood centre thing, I volunteered several years ago through my neighbourhood centre, I was about 30, and ended up being paired with a lady who was still young, in her 50s, but was very socially isolated and we've remained friends to this day, 10 years later. As you know, Amanda has started volunteering at an aged care facility, how lovely would it be to have someone like her come to visit and chat and have a laugh?

I would still encourage you to put your name down for social outings in the mini bus or whatever they may have available... getting out in the fresh air for a picnic can breathe a bit of life into your day.

It is lovely to see stormcloudz here, you are such a supportive, encouraging and wonderful presence on the forums, your posts are really wonderful 😊.

Take care Chrissy,

🌻birdy

[chrissy1]

Hello, nice to hear from u again. I was wondering if u could tell me abit ur self,that would be so good, only if ur up to it. I’m not doing much. I do like looking at different threads. It helps fill my day, as I don’t do much else. It’s really cold here in Melbourne, the wind is icey. What town are u in? It’s so nice to have u on board.

take care❤️

chrissy1

[chrissy1]

Hello Birdy77

so nice to hear from u. Ur words were so precious. I’m wondering if u have a thread, so I can get to know u better if u want. What are u up too today? I’m not up to anything much.

take care❤️

chrissy1

[stormcloudz]

Hi Chrissy

I'm quite shy but I love animals and gardens, and I don't like the heat much but the cold is OK. I'm middle aged, I guess! I have a few health issues including anxiety/depression and trauma.

You are such a courageous person, having struggled with severe depression for a long time. That's really quite amazing. I love how you take the time to find good things around you when you are feeling a bit better. I am learning from that.

Do you watch TV at all on the iPad? Is there anything you like? Grandy and Tess and I were all talking about period dramas the other day. I like historical stuff.