how do i stop crying

[Matchy69]

I feel so alone,i dont have many friends or anyone who wants to know what i am going through.I just find my self just breaking down and crying.I just want some one to listen and not to judge me.

[Aaronsis]

Hi Mark

That is very hurtful and I am wondering if later on when you have gathered yourself you can address this with her and that people do make mistakes and that she herself has forgotten the children's medication, that in no way deserves to be abused and made to feel so bad, that she does not get to speak to you like that anymore and you will not be accepting that behavior.

Perhaps some distance between you could be good in that when you "exchange" the kids or their possessions you actually dont speak to each other than courteous greetings. That is does not get to come into your house and she can leave things she needs to deliver to you on the door step. I think some barriers here are needed to protect your mental health as she does not get to make you feel like this Mark.

I also dont think the children seeing her speak to you so poorly is good either so perhaps with some physical boundaries here that could help.

All this on top of already feeling bad about you friends anniversary, I am so sorry Mark this is really hard for you.

The new picture is beautiful however, that really is such a stunning view, is that near you? Wow, that could be a really lovely place to day trip?? spend some time for you.

Hugs as always Mark xx

Sarah xx

[Matchy69]

Hi Sarah,I should be use to it after 21 years of it.It just seems to get more hurful for me the older i get.I usally just drop them off at the gate and dont see her but some times it cant be helped especially when you have special needs children.

The photo is about 1 and half hour drive from me.It is the upper reaches of the Brisbane river.I took the kids fishing there.It is very dry with hardly any water in it.

[Aaronsis]

Hi Mark

21 years is a long time to be treated like this by your ex, however there is never a better time than now to make some changes. I understand that you do need to chat and have some level of communications as the children's issues need discussion, however, that does not mean she gets to be mean and rude and hurtful. You can let her know that you wont be spoken to like that and appreciate being treated the way you treat her, with respect. We really do need to show people how to treat us sometimes and call them out when it is not acceptable.

Wow, that pic sure is nice, and yeah, I think most places are very dry and barren atm. When I went to visit my dad in Cooma there are alot of riverbeds that are just rocks and are so dry. Hopefully we get some rain soon, it is so dry everywhere and we could really use it to help these firies.

Hugs

Sarah xxx

[Matchy69]

Sarah i new what my ex was like before i married her and that wasnt the reason the marriage ended it was because she slept with a friend of mine but that was my fault because i am impotent.

The storms here didnt deliver any rain at all very dissapointing,it is so dry everywhere.The town my kids live in is completely dry now.Water trucks suply the town water now.

[Aaronsis]

Oh Mark, I am so very sorry that happened to you and to your marriage. That is heartbreaking. That was not your fault, impotence is absolutely no reason, no reason at all to be looking for sex outside of your marriage. That was not your fault at all. As you know, there are so many other ways to stay connected and have intimacy in a relationship, that is no excuse at all.

I did take a quick look at the news, while I am trying to stay away from it all I just need to have an update, and yes, I did see that the rain helped somewhat but no where what they need to actually make a difference. It is just heartbreaking.

Do you have any plans for anything fun or something nice to do today?

My son is having his first job interview as I type, I am so nervous for him...I can't wait to hear how it all goes for him.

Hugs and chat soon Mark xx

Sarah xxxx

[Matchy69]

Not doing much today i dont feel to good today.I should be sorting out my sons toys he has them all over the house.

Good luck to your son at the job interview.I actually have never been to a job interview so i have no idea what is like.When i have worked ii is has been for family or friends.

More storms are forecast for latter in the week.Hopefully we get some.I would like my tanks topped up.

[Matchy69]

I think i just stay in bed today.I am not feeling the best today.

[Aaronsis]

Hey Mark

I can hear how sad you are, that is fine to rest awhile and to take some time to regroup.

Do you think you might be able to do something small this afternoon? Something like even take a walk in your beautiful garden? Some sunshine and air, I was going to say fresh air but I think that does not exist at the moment. It is so smokey here today that I can hardly see out the window. I kind of have a headache from it so I hope that goes soon.

Huge hugs to you Mark and I am so sorry that you are feeling so bad, I really am.

Sarah xxx

[Matchy69]

Sarah it is raining here this afternoon,we really need it hopefully we get some decent falls and the fire areas get it to.

Your a really amazing caring person.

[Aaronsis]

Thank you Mark for saying that, I do care and I genuinely wish for happiness for you and that you can find a brighter day and something to bring you joy.

That is so awesome to hear that it is raining, I hope it makes an impact and that it can calm some of those fires down. Either way I think just the psychological benefits of the rain, lead to happier thoughts so that is nice too for people to have some hope and some peace.

How is the appointment coming along for your daughter and the mole checks? I have been thinking about that too?

Hugs as always

Sarah xx