how do i stop crying

[Matchy69]

I feel so alone,i dont have many friends or anyone who wants to know what i am going through.I just find my self just breaking down and crying.I just want some one to listen and not to judge me.

[Matchy69]

Hi Sarah,no idea whats happening with my daughter as my ex is now shitty with me and not talking to me.At least before i knew what was going on.

[Aaronsis]

Hey Mark

That is really tough that she is behaving like that, have you perhaps thought about putting a call into the doctor? I am sure that being her father they will tell you the information? Or even a call to your wife to say "I understand you are mad at me however, I want to know about the welfare of my daughter can you please tell me the update on her mole?" I don't think that is unreasonable, do you?

I hope for a better day for you today Mark, huge hugs to you and I know this is a really tough time for you, it really is and I am not sure if I am helping but I care and I am here to chat and to let you know that I care and you are a great man.

Hugs
Sarah

[Matchy69]

I think its best to leave my ex alone or i will just keep making things worst.

[Aaronsis]

Hi Mark

I understand completely that you want to keep the peace and that is totally understandable, at the same time though you are not trying to antagonize her or upset her or tell her anything that will start a fight, you are simply asking for some information about your daughter. I get it though and you don't want to have any unnecessary friction that can make things worse.

How is the weather at your place today? We are much cooler here and the smoke has somewhat lifted with the huge storm that came through last night. I haven't seen the news today but I am hoping that the rain got to the areas that it needed to.

Do you think you can get out in that beautiful garden of yours today and suck up some of the lovely things that you have growing and some fresh air, that would be really lovely don't you think?

Huge hugs

Sarah

[Matchy69]

It has been so hot and humid here.I am just drenched in sweat.We had over 100mm of rain here,my water tanks are now full again.I had been trying to do some gardening in the morning but it makes me sad,i have no one to share it with and come to the realization that i am on my own for good now.I wont put my self through that again.It is just me and my 2 kids.

[Aaronsis]

Hey Mark

Great to chat to you some more, it has been really humid here too, the weather is just so out of control and mother nature is just not happy. I can deal with the cold and with the heat but humidity is just yuk. I am so sorry that you too are effected by this heat and the weather, it is really uncomfortable and just hard to manage.

I hear what you are saying in that it is hard to be alone especially if you do want to have a partner and to share your life with someone, they say that people come to you when you lease expect it and I am too hopeful of finding someone one day too. The dating game has changed and with online it is just a meat market.

Perhaps instead of making the garden to share with someone else you can make it for you, as a place you can go and create and plant things that you love and watch them turn into beautiful things. That is sort of what I am trying to do. Make a life that I love and if people cross my path then goodo, if not that if fine too.

It is hard Mark and I am sending you strength for today and hope the humidity goes away too.

Hugs

Sarah

[Matchy69]

Hi Sarah,we just had a big storm hit here with some nice rain.It felt like there for awhile it would never rain again but this week we have had good rain so nice to see the tanks over flowing.

I had started the vegie garden for my kids but they quickly lost interest until i plant something new.I allways had a vegie garden since i was a kid.My flower gardens were in memory of my mother and my herb garden for my cooking but the kids dont like anything which you know how it is.So i mostly cook boring food for them.

I was not looking for someone to have a relationship with,i just dont feel i could do that again.I just wanted friendship,someone to talk to hangout together sometimes.I miss just having company that isnt the kids.My kids can be so full on at times that i just like a break sometimes from the real world if that makes sense.

[Aaronsis]

Hi Mark

That is really great about the weather and I actually really like a storm, it is kind of soothing, I am not sure why but I really enjoy the thunder and lightening. The rain is such a welcome though too and I haven't seen any of the updates on the news as to the fire situation but hopefully we are on the way to having them all out.

Your garden sounds amazing and yes, I get it with kids and what they want to eat and not eat..although mine are not too bad but they have their moments....but I think that your garden would be amazing and it would be so nice to go out and pick something and then be able to enjoy it fresh on your plate, how awesome.

I get that you are looking for a friend and someone to share the good times with and to call for a chat and to have a coffee and a movie with, I am very lucky and feel very grateful for my friends. I hear you, kids can be full on and mine don't even have special needs so I have no idea how hard that must be, but I am so proud of you for doing what you do every day and the appointments and things that you do for them. I get that it is alot for you and it is just so hard to get out of this situation and to make things brighter for you.

Have you got any plans to do anything today?

I just got a message totally unexpected from one of my brother's friends about how he changed her life and that has really made my day .

Huge hugs to you Mark

Sarah xxxxx

[Matchy69]

Hi Sarah,from the storm last night i lost power for over 6 hours,it was so hot and humid and couldnt sleep to well.I have been here 2 and half years it was the first time i saw my water tanks over flowing and the farm dams are all full around here as well.

I did my grocery shopping this morning,allways seem to spend more when i have my son.I made cup cakes as well.

The school special needs teacher rung this morning and told us what classroom my son is in and he will be in a class of 15.They will try and keep him there to 3pm instead of 1 pm like last year.

[Aaronsis]

Good Morning Mark

What an awesome message that you have left for me, it is so positive and I am so happy that you have not only got in the kitchen and done some baking and have done the groceries..wow...but that is such great news about your son. It really sounds like the school has a plan and that they are really invested in his education and learning which is so wonderful and really encouraging, for both you and him too. Although in saying that he probably wont be too thrilled with having to stay at school longer..lol

How are you today? Do you have anything planned?

I am getting prepared to volunteer with weekend for BB at the Aust Open which will be really awesome and I am looking forward to chatting to people and being among the event.

Huge hugs to you my friend

Sarah xxx