how do i stop crying

[Matchy69]

I feel so alone,i dont have many friends or anyone who wants to know what i am going through.I just find my self just breaking down and crying.I just want some one to listen and not to judge me.

[Matchy69]

Hi Sarah the results are all good for that.Unfortunately my ex is blaming me for the kids being sick and is now not talking to me after abusing me about it.I dont know if i wil have them for the school holidays now which start tomorrow.I am just so over it all and her crap that i put up for years.

I managed ro transplant one rose ok and i still have a rose and apple tree and mulberry to shift as well.I went to Bunnings and got some more plants for my garden.I will have to work out where to plant them in my new garden.

It has been freezing here and we had our first frost this morning and it was very foggy.Winters here.

I hope your son can enjoy his birthday tomorrow.I see the restrictions are getting tight again in victoria with the increased cases.We havent had a case here in qld for a week but know that can change pretty quick.I am making sure i have enough of everything in case the restrictions are tighten again.

Thanks Sarah for listening.

Take care,

Your friend,

Mark.

[Aaronsis]

Hi Mark...WOW..your cauli's look insane....they are awesome..I hope mine come to grow like that..I am so very inspired now and so look forward to when I can post a pic of mine..fingers crossed!

That is really tough that your ex is blaming you for the kids being sick, surely she is adult enough to know that kids pick up all sorts of things from all over the place, especially school so how on earth it is your fault is really beyond me, I hope that you don't take too much of her projecting her unhappiness on to you on board Mark, it is not your fault and it is not right. I am sure you are over all the drama, I understand that too, but I think seeing we are still the closest people to our ex's in that we do parent together we do tend to be in the firing line, please try not to take on board her rants and her abuse, it is her shooting off her unhappiness and you are just an easy target!

The weather surely is starting to get cooler and some mornings my snowflake on my car is on, which means it is 5 degrees or less...brrrrrrr

My son is so far enjoying his birthday and I hope he has some nice moments tonight and enjoys dinner and seeing the family, and getting presents of course...lol

The restrictions are tightening here in Melbourne and I am thinking it will get tighter as the numbers start to increase again each day..fingers crossed that they don't but I am being realistic here.

I am hoping to see my dad next week with the kids but I am not sure that will happen either now....sigh.

Have a great weekend and I hope you can get back in the garden and do some more planting and enjoy the fruits of your labor...you work so hard in that garden.

Chat to you soon my friend

Sarah

[Matchy69]

Hi Sarah, how did your sons birthday go on the weekend?I hope he enjoyed himself.

Saturday i went out to my land and chopped a couple of trees that fell across my driveway.It had a lot of new ones growing after the rains we have had.Very thick in there now.

I cleaned the car yesterday which took me 4 hours and my car looks like new now.

We had frost again here this morning and its freezing cold.Probably warm up to a nice day as there isnt much wind around and the sun is out.

Take care,

Your friend,

Mark.

[Matchy69]

Hi Sarah I hope you are doing ok with the tighter restrictions in Victoria.Thinking of you.

Tale care,

Your friend,

Mark.

[Aaronsis]

Hey Mark

I took off with the kids to see my dad in NSW before all this Vic stuff happened. I really can’t believe we have to go back to stage 3 in some areas... luckily I don’t live in the hot spot areas.

We are having a wonderful time... some really nice family time which is so great. It is nice to just chill and not have to worry about work etc.

Hope all Is going well with you and your kids and that you are getting some of those crops sorted. I can’t wait to see how mine have grown when I get back.

Off to have a lazy coffee in the sunshine.. it is only 2 degrees tho... brrrrr

Chat soon

Sarah

[Matchy69]

Hi Sarah I hope you enjoyed your stay in NSW to see your dad.Its been pretty quiet here and getting my kids dropped off soon to have for the week. I have to take my son for a blood test which he will hate. I dug up some of my sweet potato and they were huge and one weighed 8.3 kg.I had some last night and it was yummy.

Take care,

Your friend,

Mark.

[Matchy69]

I have been feeling really down this weekend.I just feel so sad and crying.I have my kids but still feel lonely.

[Aaronsis]

Hey Mark

I understand what you mean. That even though you have your kids around and have company you still feel lonely and sad. That the routine of looking after kids and keeping them entertained is draining and does make the feeling of being alone greater.. as you do all the tasks alone and it really feels huge.

Even though we had mostly a great week away, when the kids argue and squabble it really drains me.. it reminds me of my childhood and I hate it. I also can start to overthink their thinking with all these negative words flying around.. so yeah.. I hear you.. it can be a very lonely place parenting alone.

I hope the day improves for you Mark xx thinking of you and hope one small thing can bring a smile to your face.

Chat soon

Sarah

[Matchy69]

Hi Sarah thanks for the reply.Tje kids are getting to me my son is so full on and never stops talking.The two of them fights gets yo me.My daughter stays in her pjs all day playing on her laptop that depresses me even more.

[Aaronsis]

Hey Mark

How are you going today? Has today been somewhat better?

I understand what you mean about the kids and yet at the same time I have no idea how hard it is for you, to have to manage the way you do with them both having special needs. I really take my hat off to you, the way that you still get on with the day and find things to do that you love.

Have school holidays started for you? We are entering our second week and it just feels like they all went back to school and now they are off again. Mine were ok last week as we were away and my son was having a great time being able to light fires and we all sat around and cooked dinner on the fire and it was lovely, but this week just back to normal and being at home.

When I got back my veggies have grown so much I really cannot believe it, I think my beets will be ready at the end of the month according to the tag, so we will see.

Hope you are better today Mark, sending you hugs and a cuppa.

Sarah