Everything is so hard

[Karen71]

I was am a student tafe.

I put all assignments in.

I completed all work.

i had problems with one assignment whick shook me.

Mental health assignment .

I cried itried i tried to tell the teacher it was to close to my own life story.

She dosent like me so shrugged my attempt off.

I failed my test in the last week.

18mnths for nothing.

They dont care that im torn apart.

4 wrong on acute means to bad to sad.

I tried so very hard.pateints loved me.

Teachers not.

My first test was 1 week after abdominal surgery my sevond the same week that i learnt my son was needing a op to save his sight.his 8.with aspergus.

I tried so veryhard.i studied till 2 am most nights because i couldnt when kids were awake.

All day its tantrums.all night its study.

I have always suffered from depression and ptsd.

I sucked it up took the bull by the horns and did my best.

I alwayfail.idont belong.

It sucks.im tied im defeated.im so alone.

I hate life peole are mean.

No im not in danger im simply done.

Why are people so mean.why do they lie and alienate.why dont i be long.

My teacher simply felt i shouldnt pass.

What is that.

Just because i make a complaint they make my life hell.

My life is already full of stress i didnt need them to add to it.

Im shattered.

Ive creid for 4 weeks now.the skin around my eyes is starting to blister.

Why are eople so cruel.

My son cant play with other children.

He has to stay 1 meter away from all kids at school.

Seriously why dont people realise the pooain they give to others.

Im sohurt.so very sad.

I want to give up but i cabt because of the kids.

Im sostied.i dont likwe this world its mean and nasty.is

[Karen71]

Yellow nan.

Im so glad your grandchild is doing better hugs.

As for the car battery! When it rains it pours. Personally Murphy has a lot to answer for with his what can go wrong and lightbulb ways.

Aargh whish people could see what there flippant words do.

Demon is right.You r truly wonderful.Florence Nightingale said love starts at home . I think she meant love starts with loving and truly accepting yourself .

You truly r a beautiful soul.

[demonblaster]

Good to see ya kaz 🙂

Sweet the first thing we need to work on is you feeling you're not good enough. YOU ARE darl.
The depression's making you think like that. I read somewhere here that helped a LOT, we don't have to believe it.
Truth we don't do we.

Oppose those thoughts Kaz by working on what you've got going for you. Everyone pretty much has good points so start searching girl & keep reminding yourself of them.

Time to start believing in yourself, you ARE worthy, you DO deserve to be happy. You CAN & will get past the pain.
Doesn't seem like it atm but look at the other choice, no one wants to stay unhappy & depressed aye.

Jeez louise, bacterial meningitis, Yikes, good they know exactly what's going on & you're being treated for it. No doubt once they've gotten on top of that it'll be a lift.

How long ago were you on the streets? Hard times, are you in a nice place now, though any roof would be a step up no doubt.

Little bits of light coming through Kaz, they know what's wrong causing you illness
Hopefully you are in better accommodation
Here's helping you a bit as you mentioned earlier
You're not alone anymore
You have support here

Cya next visit darl, get rested as much as po 🙂

You're gunna get through this

(( ))

[topsy_]

Hi Karen & Demonblaster

Thank you so much for your beautiful kind words. I had a few tears in my eyes. I really appreciate your kindness especially at the moment.

Our little grandson is home & hungry!! His throat is sore but he's not too bad when medicated. His little brother has a bunged-up leg. He can't weight bear.

My daughter left one hospital with one child swapped children with her hubby at the hospital across the road! It never rains but it pours!!

Karen how awful you've had meningitis. How were you not in hospital? Gosh no wonder you felt so rotten. Illness like that can cause depression by itself without taking into your "normal" depression. Hope you know what I mean. A double whammy.

It sounds like you've experienced a lot of tough times Karen. I think you should be very proud of yourself for the way in which you've gone about improving your lot. Well done & kudos from me.

I hope you'll feel much better soon. Be gentle with yourself. People used to say that to me & I couldn't work it out. But think of how you would treat someone close to you who was going through what you are. Then treat yourself with the same gentleness & care. May I add I am still inclined to forget this at times!!

I'll be thinking of you, Lyn.

[MickeyM]

Hi sweet pea

My sweet, you ARE good enough.

You have achieved so much not only academically, but also to empathize with the patients and their families. Not many people can do this.

As my Doctor said to me once, "We grow into our lives."

I love this expression. Right now, I know you feel like the world is against you. Trust us, it's not. You've been thrown some really hefty curve-balls, and it's no wonder you're upset with your teachers.

Something I've said before, that" beliefs are examined to ensure they are built on truth." I came across as part of physiology I was studying (I went back to Uni online a few years ago). Anyway, studying this, particularly this phrase shook me to the core. There was so much that I believed, there were so many "if only's" running through my mind. I went to Uni after high school and failed a core unit. Repeated the year (had to,) just doing one unit, and failed it again. Reading this quote, I got so pissed off at all the times I'd asked for help, only to be called selfish...and more.

But the thing is, my sweet, we do grow into our lives, and we can't apply our new knowledge, along with experience to our past. I honestly wish we could, I would be in such a different place now. But we can't. But we can examine our beliefs to make sure they are built on truth.

Just keep swimming, my darling Dory!

See your GP to check in to make sure your medication is effective. Ask him for a medical certificate so you can defer-do it now, please! You will achieve your Diploma, I know you will. Baby steps.

See if you can see your counselor soon.

All my love

Mickey

[demonblaster]

Good post Mickey

Yeah I like that too, "we grow into ourselves"... past does form us I think, but the good is we have choices in life, & how we want to be.

Also like & agree with Beliefs are examined to be sure they're the truth" ... heard same here before, we don't have to believe what others think or ourselves for that matter.

Yellow 🙂 Jeez the grandies are having a rough trot, lucky they've got a loving Nan by the sounds 🙂 & no doubt parent/s too.

Car?

You?

Hey Kaz darl, hope you're feeling brighter today.
Remember Keep letting it out here hun. Vent central 🙂 Where we can all unload & learn from others too.

Have a good day all

[topsy_]

Hello Karen

Don't these guys have some great sayings?!

"We grow into ourselves" & "Beliefs are examined to be sure they're truth".

Are you feeling any better yet Karen. Everything is so much harder to cope with when we are sick. I hope you'll be feeling heaps better soon.

Today I made 2 lots of (different) pumpkin soup. We had one lot for dinner tonight. It had red curry paste & coconut cream. Turned out yummy.

The other one has some apples in it too but it won't be ready till tomorrow. I'm not sure where you live but we're in central west NSW & it gets very cold. Soup is so nice & warming.

Well I'd better go. I hope you won't be too busy over the weekend with the kids.

Thinking of you, Lyn.

[demonblaster]

Soup sounds good Yellow (actually nanna)

I got a pumpkin while back, oops, got VERY mouldy

Penicillen's (How do ya spell that beasty) good for ya but Yeah/Nah 🙂
Did take that long to turn either, usually they last a while

Never thought of apple in it. mmmm

Hey all

Hey kaz girl, how ya doing today darl
Getting some good rest?

[topsy_]

Hi Karen

How is your weekend going? Do your children have sport or anything they go to? Mine played netball & also did ballroom dancing - all those years ago!!

Are you feeling any better yet? Physically & mentally? Try & take it easy while you get your strength back.

Thinking of you, Lyn.

[demonblaster]

Hey Nanna & all 🙂

Kaz hope you're starting to pick up hun & getting some good rest

Hope everyones days are a bit brighter

Caio (nah not Italian 🙂

[monkey_magic]

Right back at you demonblaster!!!

Karen thank you very much for your response. I would be grateful to receive a hug from you. Hugs right back ooooooo.