Alone..Depressed..Sad..

[Ggrand]

Hi..I'm new here..just need to put my feeling down..no one to talk to makes depression and anxiety so hard...the last 4 days I have either been in bed crying or on the lounge crying..I can't seem to get out of this...I am becoming a prisioner in my own home as its getting progressively difficult to go out.. I have to go out Tuesdays so I do everthing on that day but it's like I'm holding my breathe all day until I get back to the safety of my home then I can let go and that starts the cycle again of spending the next 6 days at home either in bed or on the lounge sad and depressed...I really feel like just giving up.. My husband passed away 4 years on This coming Thursday. My children live 6 hours drive away and have small children so I don't see them that much.Bad mum and grandmum I am on there last visit i was pleased to see them but I just wanted them to go home. I feel so aweful and numb atm..

[Paw Prints]

Hello Grandy, wave to everyone,

Oh lass I wish I could give you a big comforting hug in rl... having your brother postpone his visit would be hard for you at any time... but as late March is already a difficult time for you... that must make it that much harder... of course you struggled with it all...

Keep reminding yourself his visit is only postponed not cancelled & you still have it to look forward to... I wonder if perhaps you might find it helpfulto spend this waiting time working on one of your projects... like your stick... using being able to show him when he does come as motivation...

Be gentle with yourself lass

hugs

Paws

[Ggrand]

Hello Deebi👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩, Hanna, Paws and everyone...🤗..

Thank you for your caring posts...

It is good isn’t it how we can see things through the phone, while the other person is walking around with it....instead of waiting weeks for film development...I really hope my brothers impending visit doesn’t go wrong this time...the last 2 times he was meant to visit...things went wrong for him....

Tomorrow I get my first booster shot...I can’t cancel again because I’m out of prescriptions for my heart meds....a bit anxious about having it though....

Deebi, please don’t be sorry about not replying...you are going through a very hard time right now...you must look after yourself with lots of kindness, patience and care...If I was their I certainly would be making sure that you are..love you dear bbff..💚🕊🌱🌹...

It is strange weather for Autumn...I remember that some years out here...we have still got hot weather into late May, then winter comes along with a vengeance...

Daylight savings ends this weekend...which I am pleased about...

Work is not good anymore...my heart just isn’t in it...We are all volunteers and everyone should treat everyone equally, with kindness and respect...I don’t see what’s so hard about doing that..but obviously it is for a number of people...

I hope your all doing as well as you can be...

Sending my love, hugs and care to you all..💜🤗🦋.

👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩Grandy..

[quirkywords]

Grandy

as you know I also volunteer at a maybe bigger place with our,interesting and paid staff and the politics and rules can be confusing and make the vo,integers complain about each other and not be supportive. Mostly it is pleasant to work but volunteers need to be appreciated.

I was ok after booster , all the best just make sure you don’t arrange anything after it so you can rest if needed.

[Hanna3]

Hi Grandy and hi to quirky and everyone -

I had no problems after my booster, I felt absolutely fine and very relieved to know I wouldn't get very sick if I caught covid/omicron now! I think some people get a slightly sore arm but I was absolutely fine and so were most people I spoke to.

Grandy I know you are not enjoying the shop so much at the moment, but things can change, I hope you stay on as it's only a couple of days a week, you said you enjoyed talking to the customers, you've come such a long way... my experience with working with people is that things can shift... so maybe things will improve again.

It's a beautiful morning this morning but yes we are having a damp rainy Autumn so far - I guess we are lucky not to be in the areas that are flooding! I am trying a new outdoor cafe I passed yesterday that I didn't know existed! And I have music this afternoon.

You would love watching all the dogs playing in the dog park - tall ones and big ones with the little ones, all running around with goofy grins on their faces.. little Sam doesn't do much, he just kind of follows the others with a big happy smile on his face... he just enjoys the experience of being there!

Big hugs.

[monkey_magic]

Hi Grandy,

I haven't had my booster yet.

I remember working for the dole at a charity store and the work conditions were atrocious. I didn't last. Being treated like that can set u back. My heart's not really in my job either at times I just go through the motions.

IM sure you're in two minds about whether to go in. I feel like that. I mentally struggle to go to work.

We are puppy minding at the moment. It's my brother and his girlfriend's miniature dachshund. Such a cute, playful little doggie. A bit of work though teaching her potty and if we go away from her she barks and yelps. She has to be around people. She's running around wrestling with her toys as we speak.

All the best to you lovely,

💗🙉

[Croix]

Dear Grandy~

I've sailed though my booster wiht a minor tenderness at the site of the injection which faded way by the next day, I too have uncertain health and was a tad apprehensive, but the extra protection has given me more confidence and allowed me to get out more.

I'm sure your son will make it, it has simply been bad luck nobody could predict that stopped him from coming. I guess hte thought to hold on to is he wants to come -how good is that!

As for the shop, I'm afraid anywhere you can find people you'd rather not be with, I doubt that you are alone, they may well be poorly regarded in other areas of their lives, I'm sure you appraisal of them would be accurate.

Things do change, though I'd suspect the one constant is the enjoyment of talking with the customers, something I expect they appreciate too.

The weather - no rain here in any significant quantities for ages, the garden is more than thirsty 😞

Croix

[demonblaster]

Hey our Grandy 👩‍❤️‍👩 & all ☺

Sweety at times I think like today do you feel lovey ready to contact your lovely previous mh lady because she'd I imagine be unpacked and settled by now

Sad you're feeling that way about work. Valid point our Croixy man made about finding somewhere where there's all good peeps. I've worked many places & that's spot on

The lovelies have made good points too. Time brings change which often are goods. Hoping the new one is nice tho I suspect she might not be a worker

So true about volunteers. People are quick to forget aren't they. The paid ones won't have a job if it wasn't for the volunteers. Clearly you have v.good work ethics which is part of your steel in your beautiful character

You've also been going through a lot lately darlin 🤗 I find when I'm coming down off BP pretty much everything even what I like can have a darkness let alone you have good reasons to feel like this. I wish there was someone there that could make them wake up to themselves! I'm so glad you have dear Betty with you.

Thanks darls I felt stink because I replied to a couple of others but you're always my priority. I didnt want a newby to not be replied to in a heavy thread and can't remember the other/s why.

Yip we didnt have any probs either and the palpatations weren't related and have stopped. Think slight sore arm. Better than the previous.

Darlin is there a way you can get the meds at all. Not liking you being without them my girl. Some chemists deliver free of charge or could some one get them for you? If $ is an issue I imagine you'd be a regular could you book them up till payday.

Ahh Grandy 120% ditto, thanks sweetyheart so much comfort knowing you'd be here for me as I would you in a flash. Johnny rocket would be jealous of my speed. Dunno if there is a Johnny rocket 😆 is now evidentally

All our dog lovers would adore this dear puppy stuffed toy my precious got me today. She's so cute. I have virtual kittens & a puppy now 💗 how gorgeous he is 😍

So in this cute winsy bottle with a wind chime dangling of it has a snow white powder inside. Aha I see your suss 🤔...no no quite safe 😅 ... sooo big breath in and hold for 2...5...10...20...oh soz you have to whish it around before you get to 5 seconds oops 🙃 The hologram that appears is all of your many loving friends including Destiny & Eternity there with you hugging your beautiful soul till it heals but me first, oi get in line you lot

👩‍❤️‍👩💜🤝👀deepest love 🗯 sweet lady 😚

[mmMekitty]

Hi Grandy, 😺

How are you doing since your booster? I, too, had no problems other than a little soreness around the area of the injection. No worries.

I have sometimes had the problem of misplacing my 'script. so now I have my local Pharmacy keep themon file, & sometimes I phone & ask them to send what I need. They do deliver free of charge, & when they arrive, I hold out my debit card & ask them to aim their portable EFTPOS machine at it, to pay. That way, we also stay as far from each other as possible. The person, who is wearing a mask, doesn't hang around either. Under the circumstances, it's the best I can do.

Unfortunately, we aren't offered the opportunity to give ourselves any vaccines. Wonder how many would if we were? If necessary, people with diabetes learn to inject themselves, so why not?

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Even though I mostly prefer cats, I do love the images that come to mind when people describe their gorgeous furbabies, young or old. big or small, it's all lovely.

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I had done voluntary work:

mostly filling envelopes,

also, collating & inserting forms into blank files, ready for use,

some, folding & distributing gowns to bedside cabinets,

& other odd jobs for a public hospital. While I was there, the new Volunteer Manager at the tie pushed for a greater recognition & respect for the work volunteers. We were not 'just' volunteers. She suggested that when people ask us what we do, we do not say, "I'm just a volunteer" or even using 'volunteer', but instead, say what the work is. I think that was a most helpful idea, gor us, & for anyone we spoke to.

Sometimes I would perceive I was not as respected as paid staff. Maybe that was my depression, or not, I"m not sure. Some people seemed to have unfriendly attitudes towards anyone 'beneath' them, such as cleaners & orderlies... which I get really irritated about, because where would a hospital be without the cleaning staff, the orderlies, the kitchen staff, the maintenance staff...?

The many types of volunteer work people all around the country, & world, is worth so much more than the money which is allocated to support them, so much more.

Grandy, whenever people where you work don't appreciate you, know that I do. ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️ 🥇You're a champ to me.😻You & all volunteer workers.

mmMekitty

[Ggrand]

Hello Quirky, Hanna, Magic, Deebi👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩, mmMeKitty and all🤗

Thank you all for your posts..they did help me to get my first booster easier..

Croix... I too have a sore arm...and my joints are really aching...I was sitting on the lounge nursing it all and body scanning...I don’t have health anxiety, so don’t know why I was doing that...anyway I decided it was a cool day and good for mowing my lawns...so that’s what I did today...Now I’m tired and sore together...Good ingredients for a good sleep....I hope..

Quirky and everyone...there are no paid workers at our store all volunteers..some workers think they are above the others and that’s not fair...These were all nice friendly people before our boss retired...I don’t know why this is happening to them..,how does one change so quickly?...

Magic, sometimes it takes me an hour or more of anxiety type thoughts before I can get out my door...how much easier it would be if I didn’t work...

mmMeKitty, yes I agree that any job, whether cleaner, Doctor, Taxi driver, plumber, mechanic, factory worker are all highly valued jobs/careers...because without different types of workers...absolutely nothing will be operating...we all need each other....

Hanna...I do hope you’re right..these ladies were friendly towards each other before...I hope they go back to being that way again.,,,

Deebi..I am okay now...My Dr. gave me new prescriptions for each med I take...and a bit of a lecture about me cancelling my appointments...She is really nice and I know she cares about me....she wants every 3 weeks for me to see her...I think that is too close together...

Deebi, Thank you for your soul hug...Poor Eternity and Destiny let’s do a group hug with your fur babies and mine...soul hugs back to you bbff with lots of my love and care.,🕊🦋💚🧸🦄🤗👼🍰..

My love, hugs and care to you all..💜🌹🤗.

Grandy...

[Hanna3]

Hi Grandy and waves to everyone.

I hope your arm has improved and is less sore! It was quite a nice day here today after the freezing wind yesterday. I hope you're keeping snug and warm there with the furs...

The ladies at the shop might be juggling for position a bit if the boss has left... they may settle themselves down, given time..

Keep positive.. I know staying home and not working might be easier, but how long before you are alone day after day with nobody much to talk to... and not seeing and chatting with the customers anymore...the weeks can get very long.. You know we support you here no matter what you do, but do think about it very carefully before you stop going... I have regretted many things I didn't try persisting at longer...

I have a few lovely home decorating books to enjoy looking at this evening - the lovely serene interiors inspire me... and they are restful to browse through - got them at the library today.

Don't forget daylight saving ends, hoorah! hugs.oxoxoxoxo