Advice for Seeking Professional Help (Trigger Warning- Sexual Abuse, Self-Harm, and Suicidal Feelings)

[Chloe_M]

Hey guys,

My life at the moment is really complicated, so I'll keep it brief:

• My parents are extremely strict- they don't let me do anything, when my boyfriend (who was also my best friend) broke up with me, they didn't know
• I was touched inappropriately last year by someone who I had known for years (not a family member, a peer)
• I suffered from depression(?) after the breakup for about 5 or so months (I don't have a diagnosis because my parents didn't know)
• I have stopped now, but I had been self-harming for around 2-3 of those months
• A couple of weeks ago, the depression and anxiety was so bad that I wanted to kill myself
• I am always anxious- I have a constant feeling of dread in my stomach
• I have panic attacks frequently that sometimes are for no reason- these involves sweating, shaking, hyperventilating and crying
• I really hate germs and am kind of obsessed with washing my hair and sanitising my hands
• A lot of my 'friends' judge me and some of them bitch behind my back
• I find that my anxiety is not at the front of my mind when I dance or when I am on this forum helping others
• My ex and I are friends again, but some weeks he ghosts me and flirts with random girls, and some weeks he acts like my boyfriend again
• I have only recently 'come out' to my parents about being anxious all the time
• I am going to see the school counsellor on Monday
• My parents are going to take me to a GP and get a referral to see a psychologist

I would like some advice on how to talk to a counsellor/psychologist and some general info about confidentiality and stuff like that.

Thanks guys xx

Chloe_M

[Amy23]

Good job for getting help, I wish I was brave enough like you.

[Chloe_M]

Amy confidence if you don't have it takes time to build. I had zero confidence, I still don't have much, but I built it here by talking to people. By getting support from members of the community first.

you will be brave. One day. Keep trying. You will get there 🤗

x Chloe

[Amy23]

Thankyou, I will keep trying xx

[Chloe_M]

Good on you!

[startingnew]

just sending some hugs to you Chloe. i think you said you have dancing tomorrow? so wanted to wish you luck with that tomorrow too xoxo

[smallwolf]

Chloe,

Been following you from the side lines. Just thought I would add my congratulations on your results and headspace appointment.

No advice here. Enjoy this moment. A new journey starts here.

[Losstt]

Just catching up on yout thread Chloe, pleased that your appt went so well. I hope you get matched with somebody else who makes you feel comfortable. Sorry i have been away feeling sorry for myself!!

All the best

X

[Chloe_M]

Hello my friends,

Losstt long time no see but it's no biggie, self pity isn't always a bad thing, you need to not be so hard on yourself.

Starts I really needed those hugs today. Anxiety got the better of me. After I did my first dance ( Broadway jazz/musical theatre solo- placed highly commended but apparently should have placed higher). I stuffed up my pirouettes and wasnt feeling that great although the rest of my routine was 👌. Was getting ready for my contemporary dance when all of a suddenly started getting really anxious. I didn't want to go and perform it. Mum tried convincing me to but I just ended up having a mental breakdown. We came home; I didn't do my contemporary or lyrical or ballet solos. I cried for 3 hours straight.

Wolfy thank you even though you don't post much here your presence is acknowledged, thank you for being my silent supporter x

everyone thank you for being here and being yourselves. Hoping that tomorrow is a better day.

chloe

[startingnew]

Anxiety is a bi**ch Chloe, sometimes it does get the better of us but you are still in the early days. lots of learning to do. try not to be too hard on yourself. youve done alot of dancing and bein so busy too, a day or 2 rest and just chilling or connecting with your close friend might be on the cards for you hey.

sounds like your mums supportive of you either way

more hugs xoxoxo

[Chloe_M]

Yes starts anxiety is a female dog, thanks to her I've a splitting headache and looking at my IPad hurts my eyes, but I should get through all the new threads there are a lot and I haven't been in the forums since this morning.

Yeah mums supportive, however was a bit mad at me but she has a fair point, we drive a long for that Comp and wasted her day and money.