Hi, welcome
Indeed grief is a battle, then eventually we rise above it a little, enough to function. While in grief we dont think we will recover but we usually do.
It is sad you dont want to open up to your partner but it is understandable. You want to protect him too.
Grief for me used to be harder to overcome, as I've aged (68) its had become somewhat easier. I write poetry so that is part of my process to heal. Writing in anyway does help as does planting a rose bush or a tree for them. But I suppose being an ex you likely still had feelings for him. The movie "the way we were" has that theme where they loved each other but couldnt live with each other.
I'm glad you got it off your chest. 🙂
THE OLD REDGUM
The bass singer met his love
while in the recovery room
like sitting with him under an old red gum
To paradise from all the gloom
And every now and then
Off to the tree they’d go
To talk about their personal battles
Their friendship and their woes
When the old singer met his end
On a bed he’s never leave
His once lover returned to that old red gum
Where both began to grieve
Sap fell upon her shoulder
As both began to weep
Both of them in others arms
Quietly they fell asleep
And every now and then
The once lover would take her heart
Along to that old red gum
a tear for a singer... another story had begun…
TonyWK
