What a beautiful tribute, photos can be such a great way of dealing with grief. Like you said, it can feel like you're reliving certain memories. You also don't have to apologise for offloading, we're here to listen and support you, so you can offload as much as you need to.
I feel like I see that a lot with people who have either never had a pet or weren't particularly close with a pet that has passed, where it can feel like other people move on quite quickly or don't take it as seriously, which can feel frustrating. Sometimes, for those who did have more of a connection with a lost pet, this can just be because some people prefer to deal with their grief in a quiet and private way.
Is there anyone in your family, or any friends or loved ones, who you'd feel comfortable talking to about how you're feeling? Is there anyone who has had a connection with your cat who you may be able to open up to and reminisce with?
That's the other thing that I've learned - grief isn't a linear process with distinct stages that happen in order, people experience these stages at different times and intensities. Every grieving process is different, and everyone finds comfort in different activities or rituals during different stages of their grief. It's important to be patient with yourself during this time. What you're going through is very normal for pet owners who have suffered a loss, particularly if it's recent as yours is. Your cat was and still is important to you, and such a sudden loss can take a big toll on you.
Keep remembering all the positive moments that you both shared, and do whatever you feel you need to in order to treasure him. If you're into art or writing at all, creative outlets like this can also be a good means of processing grief and representing life.
