i cant really say it all in only this space
2021 my dad passed away from bowel cancer and it was really hard for me and ever since he has been gone i feel like i have really bad problems like everyone around me hates me my mum treats me like a maid in my eyes sometimes i dont know why but latley i have been very misbehaved and i want it to stop im dying inside and im so stressed about everything latley and i just need real help and i have found really bad guilt and i want myself to suffer
I'm so sorry about what you're going through. It sounds like you are really suffering at the moment. My mum passed away last year and I went through every emotion just at her funeral alone. Grieving is difficult and everyone copes differently. Misbehaving or being irritable can definitely be a sign of your grieving.
Have you spoken to anyone other than your mum about your dad's passing at how it's affecting you? Any friends? It might be worth having a chat to a GP or psychologist. There is also griefline which is a support service for anyone experiencing grief. https://griefline.org.au/
For me, I coped by burying my emotions and trying not to think of my mum. It helped temporarily but I had to face my sadness at some point. I also dream about her a lot. You're not alone. Use this forum as a place to vent or get things off your chest. We're here for you.