Dear Chlobear,
I am not in your situation however I hate to see a post unanswered when you are reaching out for help.
First of all, your loss is important. This person was a massive part of everyday life and it is hard to find closure,when your anxiety throws up all the what if’s. You can feel guilt,anger and sorrow- all in a three second span. There can also be longing and it goes unforfilled.
Your GP can help connect you to mental health services through Medicare,if you aren’t already. Calling the hotline here. And keep on talking about it. Talking with people experiencing what you are,at the same moment, could be helpful . Telling them words of encouragement,might help you heal aswell.
if you are experiencing difficulties in your daily life, keep to your regular routine. Eat 3 times a day, keep appointments,go to sleep at the same time. Repetition is the key to making something helpful.
Thoughts on sleep. Listening to nature sounds ie waves or thunderstorms OR white noise can help to block out noise,have something to focus on and may help to go back to sleep. Listening to a sleep podcast or meditation. Don’t keep checking the time,especially on devices. Don’t turn on the light and sit in it. You could invest in a non blue light that allows you to fall back asleep easier as it doesn’t distrupt your alertness from sleep. Other lights and screens can actually wake you up more. For your thoughts, sing a song in your head loud. Drown out the thoughts until the song is all you are concentrating on. Don’t pick one with words that are sad triggers. Also visualise a train pulling into a station. Push your thought on the train and watch the doors close,and the train speed off. The train is moving away from you with the thought on it. Or grab a pen and paper and write down all the thoughts out of your brain. It is surprisingly helpful that you are releasing them from your mind swirling,just by writing them out into the world. Try not to drink caffeine alot ir sugar before bed too.
Please reach out when you need too. That is what this forum is for.
take care of yourself.
ABC01
