Hi Djman
Please accept my sincere condolences to you regarding the loss of your parents and of course, more recently your much loved Dad.
My Dad passed away in 2007 and I miss him and grieve for him still. We had such a wonderful bond/connection and it hurts like crazy that he's not still here.
I guess this isn't probably the kind of response you were hoping for but I just wanted to let you know that the grieving process will take time. Of course everyone is different, but with a death of someone in the family so adored, it takes a long long time to get over.
My main suggestion for you is to seek out counselling. Do you have a good GP that you can go too? If not, then on this website there is a list of GP's who are all trained in mental health issues - and hopefully either GP that you go too will be able to provide you with access to a counsellor who may charge at a low rate or might not even charge at all. I haven't ever fully investigated this, but I'm sure there are folk on this site who could assist you with this aspect better than what I can.
But yes, I really believe that you need to obtain some counselling and also to give your GP the full rundown on things because he 'may' need to give you some meds to assist you for a while as well. Just a possibility. If he does, then please accept them because they are purely designed to help you.
Grief is an awful thing and something that each of us must face during our lives. It never gets any easier and no matter how you feel, don't question it, because it is just how you are dealing with the situation and how you are trying to cope getting through each day.
I hope that you can stay with us for a while and I look forward to hearing from you again.
Kind regards
Neil
