Coping after a death of a funeral

[rachealw]

I've just recently lost my Nan suddenly. During this Covid-19 pandemic. Attempting to be there for the funeral was proven to be a challenge but not impossible. I was still able to fly interstate without needing to quarantine. I was still able to comfort those who could be there. I was also there to make some hard decisions and funeral arrangements. My Nan was like the next figure in life to what people call one a "Mum"... Long story short. I helped care for my Nan before she went into a home from all my teenage years. I'm having trouble coping with her being just "Gone" I felt like i didn't have time to grieve or be sad or to even laugh or cry. You become busy deciding the colour of her coffin and what photo to choose best and what flowers she would of loved by the time the day comes around your not ready to say goodbye yet. Due to the pandemic outbreak and states having their own lockdown and regulations i had to leave 1 day earlier before the service. I wasn't able to be there till the end to even lay her down. Instead i had to watch from a screen and feel at a distance. I'm vividly struggling sometimes to sleep. I can still feel her cold holds against mine and although i still got to see her and kiss her and share upon the memories we had together. I wasn't ready to say goodbye or let go. Now shes been floating around me in thoughts, in my dreams and i just feel like there's a lump in my throat that's hard to explain the presence of. How does one find ways to accept this passing and move forward in life?

[Nidhoggr]

I’m really sorry for your loss. It’s incredibly tough to deal with all the emotions while handling funeral arrangements, especially during such a challenging time. I faced something similar when my grandfather passed away. The whole process was overwhelming, and I felt like I didn’t have time to grieve properly.

Grieving takes time, and it’s okay to feel a mix of emotions. It’s important to give yourself permission to mourn and seek support from friends, family, or even a counselor if needed. Sometimes talking about it or finding a way to remember and celebrate their life can help with the healing process./

We went with a low cost funeral service, which helped us manage things within our budget while still honoring him the way we wanted. They were really understanding and made the process as smooth as possible.