New to Beyond Blue and hope I am able to shed some light & help myself also...21 months ago due to backyard accident, I sustained severe head trauma, resulting in hospitalisation & rehabilitation and a late diagnosis of Dissociative Amnesia in where I lost my entire and complete memory, which also led to severe depression. along with other issues....I remembered no one in my family what so ever, not my children or siblings or even my partner, or my life but due to my family and my children, they were able to fill in the blanks for my medical team of my past history of depression, which I found out I had suffered on and off for many many years....Most recently due to dissociative amnesia, my depression has a strong hold, and often there are days when walking out the front door is just not an option, I would shut myself away from the world and refuse to talk about things..I had problems dealing with just day to day stuff, relearning my life how to walk, look after myself, relearn about the world outside, relearning technology, learning about my past life and discussing it....and that was my worst enemy!!... I had no memory of my past life and what I did learn or what I had memory flashes of I had not dealt with in the past ...so they were carried into the future, which along with D.A has caused my severe depression..So...relearning how to open up and try to explain exactly how and why I feel this way is not easy....why you feel you are in a deep darkened hole unable to see any light above let alone found a way out....I was very lucky to have my daughters help and found a very lovely GP with a mental health back ground but still my biggest problem was trust and dealing with my depression by going on medication ( which at first I refused to do as I was unable to grasp the concept of what had happened to me....my hardest battle besides the D.A. is remembering to trust people enough to be totally honest with how I am coping and confide in them with my daily battles...Opening up and trust is a massive step, some days are darker than others and some days getting out of bed is a struggle, I honestly know that without the help & understanding from family, friends, mental health team and specialists I would be in a darker deeper hole with no way out at all....I do know its a constant battle but its a battle that can be won with trust and the right people on your side....talk ...talk to who ever will listen to you...get it off your chest..open up....
