The physical struggle each day

[Daisycqt]

Does anyone else struggle physically each day? I feel like to just get up and move, putting one foot in front of the other, even drawing breath a real struggle. I've worked one way or another since I was 6 years old, but now if I had to "go to work" I doubt I coukd even make it to the car without collapsing. Every little thing, even taking a shower, seems to take so much energy I just can't do it. Does anyone else have this?

[white knight]

Hi Daisy,

Are you on medication and what is your diagnosis? how old are you? Briefly mention your past life and struggles,

All these and more is crucial to being able to assist you.

Tony WK

[Daisycqt]

Hi thanks for your reply. I am 50 years old and have had depression for about 15 years but couldn't get any medication until about 7 years ago due to my "addictive personality"  I'm a recovered alcoholic, sober 8 years. I've been diagnosed with depression, scoring 42 out of 50 on that test thing the doctors give you. I'm on an antidepressant along with other medication for fibromyalgia, migraines and peripheral neuropathy (which means I can't feel my fingers and toes) I live with two beautiful daughters 16 &. 18 and have always been a single mum. Never any partner to help me. I'm also a carer for my 81 year old mum who's an ex nurse and midwife and who is not the easiest person to live with as she is never wrong, never apologises and loves crisis and tension (I put that down to being s child during the war) she can always find a job at any time of the day or night. I've been brought up on the principal that the devil makes mischief for idyll hands so if you are awake you should be working.

Ive handled stress quite well for most of my life but in the last 12 months it's just too much and I've slowed to the point of stopping dead! I just can't make myself move like I used to, just drag along each day as best I can and then collapse into bed as soon as decently possible. Even then I don't sleep until about 2am and have to drag myself awake at 11am. I have no energy to support my daughters outside activities and basically just want to sit and stare at the wall all day.

[jtec]

Hi Daisy

All i can say is that you are not alone in this! I damaged my back last April and been off work! What you describe is the point i am at right now! I am finding with the physical struggle comes a cloud in the head! Do you find this? At present i would probably not get out of bed in the morning if i didn't have a kid to get to school. 

If you are wanting advice i will say start with the shower and grooming routine first! Reason i say this is that it helps get to a next step! for example: I was not getting out of bed when kid was on school holidays until after lunch time every day.... when the kid went back to school it was really difficult! But i had no choice.

My partner helped me slowly get back into a routine with the advice of waking up at 7 am everyday! even if i just laid there.

After a week i found myself waking up easier!

Then she said wake at 7 am then have shower/shave/groom etc..

So i did!

I now am at the point of getting the kid to school and from school!

I  also am doing grocery shopping and physio!

I am finding the cloud is slowly dissipating with the more i involve myself! Hopefully i will be able to get to a place where i can retrain myself to work again! (retrain needed because i can not physically do what i am trained to do)

I have a long way to go but it's a start! I Hope my experience in this situation helps you see there is hope!

You're not Alone!   

Jay

[LisaT]

Yes...I can relate to everything being a struggle. If it wasn't for work I would sit on the lounge all day, drink coffee and smoke cigarettes. Even at work my passion for what I do seems to have disappeared. Some days are better than others but it's draining. I too am a single parent of 2 girls so I also get the responsibility that falls onto your shoulders. With the additional care of your mother you do have a lot on your plate. My doctor has told me that it does get better, it just takes time. So hang in there and like me be patient as it will pass.