T/W ab*ndment, su*icide
My friend of over 14 years just sent me a discord message of all things to 'end our friendship.'
I've known him since I was 18 and I'm now 33.
I have agoraphobia and have for a long time, it doesn't help my dog was killed in my arms a year ago so PTSD on top of the already existing agoraphobia.
He's recently got his first serious girlfriend 5 months ago that he almost lost twice now because he lied. I told him when he lied the first time to be honest with her. He'd been hanging out with this girl he lost his virginity too and was still very close too with his new girlfriend and never told her about it even when they had 'the talk.' He was adamant that he wasn't lying to her. He eventually told her the truth but then lied to her later and they nearly broke up. I spent over an hour trying to tell him how to fix it and hoped he would fix it because she seemed good for him even followed up this morning and he said it was fine and they got back together and he thanked me and asked me how my dog was (he currently has kennel cough)
He sends me a discord message at 7pm this evening saying he's 'sick of my drama' and told me he doesn't want to be friends with someone who doesn't go anywhere and just does things in their house. When I questioned him about it and said is he going to end a friendship with someone because they have agoraphobia and don't want to leave the house he said pretty much yeah and to do something about it.
I have major abandonment issues so him saying that to me after being friends for so long just really hurts. I don't really have anyone else except my husband so im feeling particularly depressed and alone and hating my parents for even giving birth to me.
I'm a very awkward, depressed, angry person so it's very hard for me to make friends even though I've tried to improve myself. Everyone always ends up leaving me. I don't even want to try to anymore. I should just be alone.
