Hi,
Welcome and thank you for reaching out to us.
I'm so sorry for your loss, I have never had a child but I have experienced many losses and I know how hard it is to come to terms with.
I think you may be expecting too much of yourself, less than a year is not a lot of time in the grieving process. It takes as long as it takes and that is different for everyone. It is not what we consider natural to outlive a child and I saw how long that affected my parents when my brother died also unexpectedly.
Are you getting any support from family, friends or counselling? It can help the process if you are able to talk about it with someone you trust.
There are many of us here who have experienced losses so you are not alone. Would you like to tell us a bit more about how you are managing? We are here to listen and to offer any suggestions that may be of help.
Loss is a very difficult reality of life whether expected or unexpected, the best we can do is to find compassionate souls who can help us get through it. You will always be aware of your loss, but it does become easier to bear over time. Be patient with yourself and most of all give yourself permission to feel good if the occasion arises, it is natural to have highs and lows during the grieving period.
I am happy to continue the conversation if you feel comfortable doing so.
Thinking of you,
indigo
