reaching out

[bluebell]

this is my first time reaching out , life really sucks at the moment. don,t feel like i can talk to anyone. feels like its all too much , an no one wants to hear it,,,so hard to reach out to anyone,, think about dying every day,, sleeping is better then living atm . the people that do know i hav depression, either don,t know how to help, or don,t beleive it . can,t see my shrink til 10days . being broke is,nt helping at all. hav to really push myself to go out.

[amamas]

Hi Bluebell

I'm glad you've posted on here.  Trust me you'll find that on here we all get you.

I can totally relate to all you said.  I can't count the number of times I've counted down the days until I next get to see my psych.

Have you tried you GP or the counselling support here on BB?  BB has both a phone line and online support.  Both are excellent.

Thinking of you Bluebell and sending you big hugs, Amamas

[Girl_Anachronism]

Hi Bluebell,

I too am going through a rough situation and am living day by day until I can see my psych in 7 days.

You don't have to talk to us, any of us, but if you feel that you need to vent and let go please know that you can do hat here and express everything you feel like you can't tell other people. We do not judge and we do not criticise you for it. We are here to support each other and listen if you want to talk.

I am also under financial pressures at the moment, have been for a while with no sign of ending. I am at the point of needing to ask a family member for a loan just to pay my car rego because the only other way to pay it at the moment is to not eat for a week. I know how tough it can be when you just want to get out or do something that you desperately need to do right now but you can't afford it. If you do it anyway you face the immediate guilt of having used money you don't have. If you don't it just makes you feel all the more trapped.

It isn't a nice place to be. Know there are other people in that place though. Our circumstances may not be the same, but we know what it feels like.

You are not alone.

As you said in your title, you are reaching out. There are people here to answer. There are lovely people on that line at the top of the screen, if that feels better for you.

Take care

GA

[Juliet]

Hi Bluebell,

13 days left for me....

I feel Exactly the same as you. (Except I'm not going out at all!) 

Hopefully a fast and easy week for you, me and GA.

Juliet

[Suzbj]

You are not alone! I'm having a bit of a hissy-spit at the moment because my story can't be published. I get why but it is a bit disappointing. Having said that, I have been on this site for just over two months and it has saved me in so many ways. Hang in there and keep posting. Seriously, we all have your back.

I get the not wanting to wake up scenario because it is so much better to be in your dreams and not have to confront the real world. But that is an illusion that keeps you, me and others from living life to its fullest. When my life is good, I can't wait to wake up. When it is not, it is so easy to bury myself in sleep and dreams. For me, I am aiming to wake up excited again and I will be. And so can you!

cheers 

Suz xx

[geoff]

dear Bluebell, it is an awful feeling living in the pits of depression, and most if not all of our friends put us in the 'too hard basket', they are incapable of even trying to understand how this phase in our life has pushed us down into a deep black hole, and blocking us off from everybody else.

Having no money takes me back 12 years when I got a black mark against my name, and this just magnifies depression ten fold, and there never ever seems to be any relief from all of this.

This maybe ironic but as my depression started to lift, my financial situation improved, and I really hope that this happens to you and everyone else. Geoff.

[Neil_1]

Hi Bluebell

It's great that you've been able to reach out on here ... and you've had some great responses provided.  I hope that you've been able to get 'even a little something' out of them.

Please please, come on here and post away as much (or as little) as you feel able too.  We're not professionals, but we are fellow sufferers and as mentioned, while each of our situations are different, we still all have this dreadful illness with which we have to battle 24/7.

I hope you might be able to get in touch with the above telephone number for some immediate professional help.  They may be able to assist with some coping mechanisms to help get you through the next little period.

It's so terribly hard when you have that appointment and it seems ages away.  And yes, the lack of money doesn't help one little bit ... I have many balloons of depression and that is one that is attached to me (the money balloon).

Thinking of you Bluebell and if you feel able too, please write back to us

Kind regards

Neil