so I work in retail, of course I'm depressed!
However, I only work 3 days a week, I do overall feel much more less stressed out than I did at my full time job (I quit due to a nervous breakdown).
Overall I am feeling nothing anymore from things I used to enjoy though. I have to force myself to play video games even or paint or even talk to my fiance.
I take at least 3 hour naps and have problems sleeping at night, I try so hard to get back to normal and take a sleeping pill at night, but then the next day I can't help myself, my mind and boredom makes me so tired.
I jus feel no excitement for anything anymore, I don't want to travel or see the world, nothing the next day makes me want to get up as I feel I have nothing to look forward to...
I had been doing so well, last week I joined a gym and went for 3 days, I cut out snacks and chocolate...usually that was what I looked forward to, eating snacks and watching my favourite movie, and now I don't have that anymore, I feel bored of everything else that brought me joy...
On last saturday was the worst, I didn't want to talk to any customers and even got angry and agitated at my coworker I needed space and not talk to people. Thankfully I don't have work till later this week but I can't seem to relax.
I paint a little, play video games a little and then just want to sleep but can't. I am frustrated and depressed and no clue how to move forward.
