I had a girlfriend, my first ever. We met at work and immedietley hit it off. She said she had a crush on me beforehand, I thought it was super cute. I was 27 and she was 24.
The relationship was great. We loved seeing each other and talking, just watching tiktoks on her phone with her made me so happy. Everyone was so sure I'd die alone, it was the nub of every joke about me. I accepted this fate. But now I felt wanted. She said she was in love with me. I was in love with her. I've never felt more empowered to be something. It was the most beautiful 2 months of my life.
then one day, august 19th... gone. She leaves. She says she's not ready for this relationship but says she doesn't blame me or regret anything she's done. I ask why, more detail. Nothing. She just wasn't ready. I felt that maybe if I tried to be her friend more, she'll give it another chance when she is ready.
2 days ago... I find out she's having an online relationship with another guy. She has openly stated she is but the writings on the wall. She met him literally 14 days ago from now 5 days before she left. He's loud and mean, with a sense of humour consisting of rude jokes. but more importantly hes richer and younger than me. 17 turning 18 and a silver spoon in his mouth.
She denies its a relationship... except she spends 6 hours a day talking to him since we broke up. Playing games in lock down. Leaving group chats to wish him good night in person. This is mixed with a tweet she made the day we broke up stating she let "greed" win, more specifically that she's afflicted by at least 1 of the deadly sins (she clarifies greed).
and this all started to happen august 19th. 2 days before lock down. 2 days before my birthday. 2 days before I was going to introduce her to my parents. Then lockdown hit. And everyone had to cancel all their plans. This included my birthday.
My parents called to wish me happy birthday, and I sat with grit teeth as I pretended that She was still with me.
all my friends though. They forgot. My housemates forgot. I was so alone. And what's worse, is that this guy streams the games he plays. I watched on my birthday as my former girlfriend who said she loved me and I loved back, acted submissive and cute to this loud egotist who made it very clear, from expectant trips to his house to sexual talk, that they aren't just friends.
My love, my effort, my understanding and my respect meant nothing when up against a young man with a bottomless wallet.
