Not coping with life anymore :(

[SadMum05]

Hi, I’m new here so I’ll just spill it all out...I’m very depressed at the moment. I’m not sleeping, can’t fall asleep till 2/3am in the morning and on work days need to be up at 5am. I’m teary but hiding it well, I have no motivation and could sit in the chair all day and not move some days. I separated from my husband in January after 24yrs of marriage and even though I know it was the right decision I’m feeling very down for all the changes I’ve had to go through. If it wasn’t for my 16yr old daughter who has been an absolute supporter I wouldn’t be here. I feel very isolated, really only have one friend. I’m on SSNRI for depression but mainly for pain and I doubt it’s working anymore. I don’t know what to do, but I can’t continue much longer like this.

[therising]

Hi SadMum05

I'm so glad you were able to feel so much on a soulful level. Emotion is such a physical thing. I believe what connects us to life and each other is our ability to feel emotion. To feel emotionally 'numb' can be depressing, especially when we want to really feel a connection.

I believe, one of the greatest challenges we face in life is the challenge of raising our self. Without a doubt, it can be hard to raise our self when we're in the dark about how to do it. I know this may sound simplistic but one of the most significant tools when it comes to me raising myself is inspiration. At the ripe old age of 50, it is only within the last year or so that I've been channeling inspiration to the degree where it makes a difference. My challenge remains not to dismiss it when it does come in. Not sure if you will be able to relate to the following:

Just say what comes to mind for you is 'You need to seek professional guidance (regarding this deeply challenging time)'. So, you listen and make that phone call. As the time approaches, you can be thinking 'I can't do this!' What comes to mind may be 'You know you have to do this. It's going to be hard but you can do it'. You decide 'No, I just can't', so you miss the appointment. What comes to mind next may be 'Well, the least you can do is get on the Beyond Blue forums and connect with people who may make the difference'. So, you allow inspiration to bring you here.

It never ceases to amaze me when it comes to the amount of people who hear the word 'You' in their internal dialogue. What I mean by this is - You can ask the question 'What am I meant to do?' only to hear 'You need to...'. Pretty bizarre when you consider it but who or what is saying 'You'? Shouldn't it go something like 'What am I meant to do?' 'I need to...'

While psychologists may suggest the 'You' aspect is the conscious mind, spiritualists or natural channelers would insist it's 'Divine' inspiration, coming from the powers that be. No matter where inspiration is channeled from, it remains fascinating and definitely helpful at times.

By the way, a great natural therapy for relaxing is, believe it or not, hair brushing. A sensitive 16yo daughter makes for a great therapist. Put a brush in her hand and invite her to brush your hair for however long it takes to feel a difference. Pretty amazing that this has been proven to change the chemistry in our brain, activating that which gives us a sense of peace and relaxation.

🙂