Hello MM
Well, in my experience I can go from one mood to another to another in a very short space of time. A bit like Melbourne weather, four seasons in a day.
To me it's the nature of depression. Take today for example. I had a long doctor's appointment. Not the most cheery activity but I had someone to talk to and generally interact with. When I returned home I pottered around doing odd jobs and felt quite comfortable. By late afternoon my mood had flattened and all I wanted to do was sleep, partly because I was tired but mostly because it was a way of avoiding thinking and feeling very down.
Tomorrow I am going to the cathedral to celebrate Mental Health Week. That will take the morning. I expect I will catch up with a couple of people and have m/tea. My mood will be good but I suspect by the time I get home I will be exhausted and probably go to sleep. Tiredness I can understand as I have been unwell but there is no real reason for the mood change. It's very annoying.
Trying to keep myself occupied so that I don't allow my thoughts to take over uses lots of energy, another reason for tiredness. So it's like a catch 22. Being active takes energy, makes you tired, brings your mood down, makes you sleep, being active etc. It's the nature of depression and I feel it is something we need to be very aware of.
Perhaps you can keep a record of what you do each day and when your mood changes, either way. Then see if there is any correlation between these things. Add in your thoughts if you can. You may be surprised what comes up.
Mary
