Hi, welcome
It's only been a few short months and as individuals we all take various amounts of time to recover enough to function near normal. We also have our own intensity of grief, we are all unique where it comes to such loss.
So essentially be kind to yourself and please try to accept that your grief is negatively effecting your mind. Being a positive person you are likely to one day soon wake up and rebound a little, this will be the sign of better days to come.
Here is a post that might help.
https://forums.beyondblue.org.au/t5/grief-and-loss/coping-with-grief/td-p/269738
BABY FAWN
Those dark clouds hide the silver linings of which you seek
But they will reappear one dawn in the coming weeks
Of fun and laughter that your mum still dreams for you
That's all she does now- is hoping your dreams come true
And the butterflies will still flutter around the cabbage patch
There will be no other lady that will be a better match
For her love and care from the day you were born
Just like a mother deer and the love for her baby fawn
What would she want more than anything you seek?
Only the best for you even though you feel so weak
Stormy times but soon the sun will begin to peak
Those dark clouds hide the silver linings that you seek...
TonyWK
