Hey guys, I hope you are all doing as well as you can. If not, that is ok too. We can only do so much.
I am feeling like I am on the precipice of a depressive episode. I made a big move to a new state, have been living in a new place for six months... And in the last two weeks I have been struggling. I am about to lose my job and failed to get another one after a few trial shifts, and it has crushed my passion for the career I was in (vet nursing, if you are curious). I moved to this state specifically because I wanted new opportunities in this field, but after this loss I am terrified of my income. I am worried about losing all my money, and I feel scared about the future. I do not know how I will afford to continue living here.. it just feels so overwhelming. I feel like my brain hasn't caught up yet, or my body hasn't, like I am in shock.
I know that support exists and things are never as black and white as they may seem, but this crushing feeling of failure is making it very hard to pursue another job, especially at a time like this! I just want to be happy and celebrate like my family and friends, but as I am sure a lot of you know, it is so hard sometimes to find that brave face. Thank you for reading..
