Your situation sounds extremely tough. My Dad was diagnosed with aggressive cancer when I was 15 so I understand the uncertainty, anxiety and hopelessness the disease can bring to a family. He is recovered now but I am still battling depression which I find hard to understand when my life is so much better than it was.
I am sorry people treat you unfairly. Mental illness is mostly hidden and it can be so hard to deal with when all you want is someone to be there for you but they think nothing is wrong. I understand that you must be feeling overwhelmed and especially with your Dad's illness perhaps unable to control your situation. I understand that the future looks bleak and that you cannot imagine continuing on. I to find it hard to imagine a world in a few years with me in it. But I am getting better.
After years of hiding my feelings because I didn't want to worry my parents because they were already going through so much, I reached out. It was tough and I felt horrible and so scared. Although it took a while I am starting to feel a bit better. I still have moments where I want to disappear but its not as intense. My psychologist is just a phone call away so if I feel I am in crisis I have someone who is there and who wants to help me.
Well done for reaching out to the beyond blue community. It is a big step. We will always be here to listen and support you. I believe you to be stronger than most for you have been through so much recently and you are still here and you have reached out. If you do feel unsafe please call a hotline or perhaps chat online to a beyond blue counsellor.
If I could take the pain away I would but I am sorry I cannot. But I will be here if and when you need me to listen to you and offer a helping hand. I hope something gives. I hope you have some small relief soon from such a daunting situation. Please look after yourself. I hope you feel slightly better soon.
LuLu
