Life has just changed so much recently. My partner and I broke up and the only reason I was given was because I didn't pick him up for our two year anniversary. (I later found out through his twitter he was gay, which I would have understood as a response rather than 'you didn't pick me up) He just also kept ignoring me and talking to his other friends, and waited for me to initiate the breakup before he did so as well. My best friend moved to another city for university. I guess, I just sort of realised once again, how hopelessly alone I am. Sure, I have friends. But I learnt that I am a second choice for all of them. I am not a first choice friend for anyone. I feel so sad, that all I need is a good cry, but I'm so emotionally numb I can't. I'm just left clutching my plushies, thinking back on past memories. I guess, I just wish I was more important to people? I just want to go back to school, because as much as it sucked, I had my whole world with me then. Now its fractured into pieces and nobody is there to help me put the parts together.
