Hello,
I'm new to this website and would like to share some problems I've been having but first need to explain my situation.
I was working overseas for the past 5 years where I was a principal of a school. I was busy, but overall happy with my job and making a good income.
I've now come back to Australia and want to start living here. So i left my job and am now seeking employment as is my wife.
Since I've come back, which was only 2 months ago, things have not gone to plan.
My grandma passed away and I attended her funeral, I had an emotional argument with my mother the very next day. She attacked my wife, not physically, (she suffers from a mental illness) which has now led to my wife and I moving out and living in an apartment. In the meantime I've been rejected countless times for jobs after coming so close to landing one job in particular.
I have had an episode about 5 years ago, where i lost a lot of weight and was not doing well, so i have a history of depression/anxiety, and i am afraid that it will come back.
Today, i just felt so sad and hopeless. I cried for hours and could not control it. Sometimes i just feel lost and I am losing all my confidence that I developed in my previous job overseas.
I am seeking help, though, I saw my GP and got a referral to a mental health professional that i will see later this week. I'm also trying to get involved in volunteer work and assistance from a career path professional.
I know that doing these things will help but i suppose it is the waiting and worrying that is getting to me and my emotional response today made me worry more about my mental condition.
I know i need to tell my wife, she does know about my condition, but she gets upset about it too and she then worries about me.
I have started to think about death etc too, but have no intention about doing something about it, but if my feelings continue...
I know people have much worse situations than me but i just need to talk about it...
Thanks for listening...
