In a box

[Cleodams]

I don't know where else to turn. I'm stuck. I thought I was in love, but now I'm not sure. I left everything behind to be with him, friends, family. Now the passions gone and now I'm just scared.

I'm 18, I work in fast food, I just left my dads, just graduated. I don't know what I'm doing. I shouldn't have left home. I resent him for asking me to live with him.

Everything he says makes me so angry now. But then my coldness gets too much, he cries and I feel like I'm in love again. What is wrong with me? I swear I love him it's just not constant. This doesn't feel right. It's not fair to him.

I want to be better to him. But I get so angry. I hate myself for it, and he hates himself for it too. The medication isn't helping I still feel wrong. Please tell me what to do. I need him. I don't want to keep hurting him. I'm sorry.

[white knight]

Hi Cleo, welcome

Sorry to hear of your issues.

I think you might have to consider a rest. Have you tried approaching your dad and asking if you can move back in?

If not then consider one of two things-

1. That you are a very kind person and when you see him cry you fall in a heap. That isn't love, that's kindness, empathy, caring nature.

2. That you do love him but you both are too young to make it work. If that is the case, if you move back home you could continue in a boyfriend and girlfriend sense, which might have been better in the beginning??

These humps in life will come and go. It's sad to go through them. Until you are much older you have to expect that the smooth road in life isn't so common.

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tony WK