I hope things can turn around for me. ( likely doomed ) Part 1

[Jaibigrone907]

I'm now, not only 29 without any payed work history. I've had nine months of volunteer in something I hated doing. My resume is basically pathetic and it's otherwise blank with just overselling my sociability and that I'm eager to work miserable entry jobs. I don't want those industries, I'm not suitable, adaptable or wanting retail, factory crap or anything like hospitality washing dishes or being a barista. I never wanted to do  construction, apprenticeships and manual labour. The entry jobs don't provide the ideal employment security and remote commutes that I would want. The wages and salaries are just the bare minimum, if your not earning $60,000 and about $30 wages you can't be happy financially or really survive individually in modern Australia, in my opinion you need around $50 wages and at least $80,000 to be happy in current Australia.

I graduated high school with only a Foundation VCAL, not a generic VCE and with a strong ATAR and I feel I failed in numerous aspects. Since I was bullied and hated everyone in high school that mistreated me during those six years. I had started with video game addictions that lasted over a dozen years since I was 12. I was immature with how I was behaving at home when I was 14 - 17, I just was not considerate. I also had no interest in basis school studies that didn't provide me a strong specific reasonable interest. I was conceiving University as a social norm since 15, only for people that want academic titled careers, I always wanted to be creative or musical, but only as a recluse hobbie, I've come to terms that likely won't happen, because I can't be the confidence or nature to really be the way I'd wish to be. I had low self esteem because I knew arsewholes since 2008 untill 2017 and I was bullied in many ways, taken for granted and they thought their better than me.

[Jaibigrone907]

Psychiatry is not a science, It's only a pseudo, based off presumptions and symptoms that they mostly exaggerate. No one in this world can be a expert or professional, especially to a complex stranger that they don't know, and no one can be 100% understanding themselves, with their capacity and insecurities. The therapist's patronise, they undermine, they lack emotional intelligence, they treat your intelligence as superficial but they hypocritically generalise patients based off their image or diagnosis, and when their allegedly flawless experts, only until the next qualified psychiatrist contradicts them, with their own respected credential theory. They diagnose people with stigma and then society has their stereotypes against you, their diagnoses can hinder your freedoms in various ways and with if you can be eligible for accommodations, employment, health benefits or driving privileges. There's no positive benefit, the meds only moderately or minimally help patients stay stable, and I've heard before that the meds make people worse mentally long term, for people that are truly with mental health battles, their positions are pretty grim regardless if their dosed on medication or not. 

[therising]

Hi Jaibigrone

I think the world of psychology has definitely advanced beyond Freudian theories and practices yet, in some cases, has not advanced enough. People like Carl Jung helped the cause to some degree, with in depth studies and research into the relationship between psychology and spirituality and how the 2 can be highly interactive in some cases. I feel it's important to know our self on 3 levels, mentally (psychologically), physically (biologically and chemically) and naturally (soulfully, spiritually or simply).

I think that sometimes psychology/psychiatry doesn't take into account how we naturally work. It can lean too heavily on textbook teachings and how we work on a chemical level, hence the insistence when it comes to how the chemistry in a medication can help us mentally. In some cases, this way of thinking can work wonders for certain people who are helped enormously by a shift in chemistry. In other cases, this approach may be neglecting how we naturally tick. It can end up being a bandaid solution or the wrong solution to a natural underlying issue that may never be addressed, an issue that can be covered up by medication in some instances. There are definitely pros and cons to the world of psychology/psychiatry.

[ABC01]

Dear Jaibigrone907,

I have been reading your posts and was wondering:

Where in your life do you find hope?

And when you wake up of a day, how do you go about it with such heavy thoughts attached? Or do they not affect your day-to-day going abouts?

Do you also have routine, direction and purpose?

I am asking for myself and whilst your posts are not the same circumstances, being down is and I wondered how you cope?

Thank-you,

ABC01