Thank you for replying GA, Stressless and Neil.
It's comforting to know that someone else understands, although I wish you didn't... because I wouldn't wish this on anyone. I hate the hollowness so much. I know you guys must hate it too.
GA - thanks for your advice. I have just finished work and have to wait around town until my husband is finished at 5. I usually spend this time at my mothers and, if she is there, we'll play scrabble or do some chores. I like your suggestions, if I can summon the energy I might find my way down to the park this afternoon and watch the water flow by. Maybe that will stir my spirit.
Stressless - I understand what you are saying. I've had so many times when I know I should be having a great time, or overwhelmed by the beauty of the world... but I just stand there going 'huh' or faking it so as not to ruin someone else's good vibes. It's so hard to accept this emptiness, but you're right... it does pass. I just have to keep remembering that. Thank you. You be kind to yourself too please xox
Neil - I definitely want to burn some more calories. I will be hopping on the treadmill and bike again tonight and see if that lifts me some. I just want to take this time and say, over these last couple of months you have helped to keep my spirits up so much. I don't think you realise just how helpful your words of encouragement have been, or how much your advice, perspective and understanding means to me. You always have a kind word to say and time for those of us who are hurting, even though you are struggling yourself. I don't know how you do it, but I am grateful that you do. Thank you for being so great Neil.
