i feel like I am never going to get better

[XR6Turbo]

Hi,

I am new here, not new to depression have been struggling for the last 3 years. Different medication, trips to hospital etc. My depression has been caused by stress which has lead to anxiety, then depression. I work as a professional and have always seen myself as a perfectionist. Made some minor mistakes that started to set off the anxiety, then depression. 

My world is falling apart around me, i feel like I am never going to get better and that I will eventually lose everything. I hate myself at the moment, giving up feels like the easy option?

I cant get back to see my psychiatrist for another few days. 😞

[scorch]

Hi XR6Turbo.

Welcome to BeyondBlue.  I'm glad you've reached out to the community here, I'm sure you'll find some support, help and friendship from the great people in these forums.  They're a friendly bunch 🙂

I don't really have any words of wisdom to impart to help your situation, just wanted to say hi.

Please don't give up.

-scorch

[Neil_1]

Hi XR6Turbo

Welcome to Beyond Blue and may I say that’s a pretty impressive name that you’ve got there.  I would like to see a pic of that next to your name … they’re a pretty swish kind of car are they not?

You made some minor mistakes … hey, who doesn’t??  Minor ones are cool … it’s the major ones that we need to try and avoid.  Were they related to your work or was it your social life??

Are you still on medications at present and if so, have you been on this particular brand for some time?  Perhaps you may need a review of them? Giving up is NOT an option ok??  Please write me back and agree with me on this … that’s a very serious matter, so I hope you can start to think of alternatives to that … please.

 Do you have a good psych as well as treating GP??

Friends/family??   Do you have support there?  I’m guessing that perhaps not.

I’m sorry for the many questions, but it will just help to give us a better understanding of your situation so others will feel better equipped to help assist you.

Kind regards

 Neil

[Mares73]

Hi there, Neil has asked the type of useful questions its good to ask-not because we want to be intrusive-but because it will help us understand your situation & the best ways we can support you if we know a little more about your situation & experience. It is actually common for high achieves & perfectionists to be more vulnerable to depression. What has triggered this recent bout that sounds like one of your most serious episodes (ie your comment everything is crumbling around me". Something must have set off a trigger & you are now overwhelmed. Can you identify that trigger? That's important because if you can identify the trigger you can then work through each of the issues the trigger raised which will lower your stress response and then we could help you with why everything got to the point that you feel completely overwhelmed. Also as Neil mentioned are you on antidepressants regularly? You manage to hold down a job-is it a high pressure role? What support do you have apart from Pyschiatrist ie do you have family or friends who support you? Sorry for the questions-ill leave it there for now-I was just wanting to add to Neil's questions as I said-so we could get a broader picture of your situation. Hope to hear from you, Mares x

[XR6Turbo]

Hi Neil thanks for the reply. Yes I was on Medication but went off it in January as both my Dr and me thought I had nearly recovered. I am back on the medication as of now.

The mistakes were work related, pretty minor, but anything minor I blow out as being end of the world. I am feeling a little better today, I have lost 7 kgs in the last week which is not a good thing, the Dr wants me to take it easy for now. I have a good Psychiatrist and a very supportive family, but like most people I am in fear of letting them down.

 Thanks for the comments from both yourself and Mares.