hi Jesse, welcome to the site on such an awful addiction that many of us have had to conquer, it's not easy we all know that, and there could be times when we relapse back to the alcohol.
I am all for going into rehab and know the waiting list is horribly long, but the problem is that you may spend a couple of months in rehab with no alcohol and not wanting to drink, however once you come out and either meet someone you know or something terrible happens then back you go to the grog, so in other words if you can overcome the drinking problem outside of rehab but with support, help and guidance then you maybe better off, but it takes strength and determination to establish your will power.
Let your g/mother be your backstop, and I'm sure she knows all about alcohol and what it can do to you, she wasn't born yesterday and she would know when you're had a drink even though you may deny it, plus have faith in your doctor.
There is a medication which your doctor can prescribe which will stop the urge for you wanting to drink, but there is no point taking it unless you really want to stop, otherwise it's a waste of time.
If you do decide to take it you will still need counselling, because both go hand in hand, and why is the reason you need the alcohol, and there is always a reason.
Don't forget you can still ring the help line even when you have been drinking, although it won't be beneficial than when you're sober.
You have to remember that your need for grog will come in waves where you say 'will I' or 'won't I' and what I used to do was drink a big glass of fizzy lemonade and skull it, which will fill your stomach up.
Never have any fear of ringing the alcohol and drug service, you're not the first person to ring them, but can I warn you that if your mate has beer in his fridge then the temptation will always be there.
Please to have you on board. Geoff.
