How can I do this.

[SMaria]

Lately ,

l have been feeling like I'm lost and I cry at the smallest things. I am easily frustrated and this has caused me to lose one of my good friends. I don't even know how to talk to people anymore, I just feel lost and no one can help me sort this out. I don't feel like I belong anywhere and I feel unwanted most of the time and when I try talking to people I just don't feel like they want to listen and I think that ok the other end they are judging me for how I am feeling. All I want is for my friends to care about who I am and I don't want to appear to them as a sad person who in the me will have no friends 

i don't know what to do i just need help 

[SMaria]

instead of "in the me it should be "in the end"

[geoff]

dear Maria, I am so pleased that you found this site, where all of us have been or still are in the same situation, so in trepidation, it's lovely to have with us.

We know where you are standing in life, it's horrible, devastating and a hideous illness, that can struck any one of us without any warning, and then who do we have to support us absolutely no one , because they all run away from us, so this then compounds our depression.

I often check the next page because there are posts like yours that go missing, and that's only because the number of present comments just seem to push over to the next page, and by doing this you must feel as though you are unloved on the site, so your disappointment and possibly grief would overpower you.

This certainly isn't the case because we want to respond to everyone who posts their own ordeal, so I am pleased to have caught you.

You are absolutely welcome here and you have every entitlement to be heard, so here I am and would love, if I can say this, for you to be able to get back to us, because you can't struggle with this illness all alone, like I did because I didn't have a pc nor did I know about this forum.

There are many thoughts that are running through my mind in what has created this depression, but I will leave all those questions until you can get back to us and explain just a small amount of what has happened. L Geoff. x

[Neil_1]

Hi Maria

And like Geoff, I too welcome you to this wonderful site and it is great that you found it and then took the huge step to post on it.  You will find people here who care, will listen (or in our case, read) 🙂  offer advice and encouragement but above all, we support each other and there is never any judgement shown here at all.  People who come here have commented how great it is that they can unload any feelings or thoughts or situations that are facing them ... and to know that they will receive 100% support.

It sounds a very difficult situation for you and as Geoff mentioned it would be great for you to be able to get back to us with a little bit more detail about what is happening (only if you feel comfortable in doing so), because that way we'll know a bit more and will be better able to give our thoughts and hopeful guidance to you.

Maria you have mentioned friends.  Do you have family that you live with?

Also you said that you feel sad a lot of the time and cry easily and frustrated.  Have you felt this way for a long time?  It sounds an awful way to be and also for you to be battling with this on your own.  You've taken a very positive step by coming here and I hope that you can get back to us soon.

Kind regards

Neil

[SMaria]

Thanks for the welcoming,

i have family that I stay with but they don't know what to do with me anymore. I have felt sad and easily frustrated to the point where I cry for no reason. I am losing my friends as they also don't know what to do with me..

one has completely ignored me just because they can which upsets me even more. And this has caused me to fall deeper into my depression. I don't know myself what has caused this depression but it's at the point where I don't know what to do and not been my friends will help me 

[SMaria]

Thankyou for the welcome,

lately I've just cried to sleep because someone won't talk to me. They are getting my messages but choose to ignore them. I am being punished for something I don't even know I did. And as I said, my friends don't know what to do with me, they walk like everything is okay and I'm not feeling the I am. At night I sleep alone and wonder, what it would feel like to not be alone. My friends just let me go on my own way and my family don't know what do do with me 

[Neil_1]

Hi Maria

I can let you know one thing ... on here you won't be ignored.  We'll be here with you for as long as you want us to be.

Can I also just say that this "friend" of yours who has decided to ignore you, in my opinion is someone who isn't a friend at all.  Friends don't abandon you.  Even if they don't understand what you're going through, friends should be there for support and a shoulder to lean on.  We can't do that directly, but we can do it electronically (if that makes sense).

Maria, I'm not sure how old you are, but are you able to get yourself off to see a GP and soon, I think this is your next move.  Describe to them how you're feeling and give a complete rundown of things.  I hope that you're able to do that and also, please stay in touch with us.

Kind regards

Neil

[SMaria]

Just now, one of my friends said that I have done nothing wrong but he feels like we need to take a break from each other. I've done nothing wrong and I've tried my best to be happy around him. I don't know what to do, he says doing that will be best for me so he has decided to move ok from me and find someone else 

i am going to see a counsellor soon 

also call me Savanna as Maria is my middle name 

[SMaria]

This friend I have, has decided that we need a break from each other. I'm not sure what I did but he has just stopped answering my messages and everything. I have tried my hardest to be happy around him but it's obviously not working. I am going to see a counsellor as soon as I can. And please, call me savanna, Maria is my middle name 

[Neil_1]

Hi Savanna,

Thank you for correcting me, and it'll be Savanna totally from now on.

I am really pleased that you've arranged for a counsellor;  will that be in the next week or so?  Did you get this via your GP?

This must be very difficult for you at the moment as it appears that your friends are moving away from you.  Is there ONE person who you think is still around and is able to chat with?

Savanna, do you work or study?  If so, how do you get on with your work colleagues or other acquaintances? 

But at this current time, I really am pleased to know you're seeking professional counselling and I hope so much that you are able to come away with some confident abilities to set you on a more positive path.

Please do stay with us though ... and would love for you to keep posting;

Kind regards

Neil