Hi KG_1975
I'm so glad you were able to learn so much with your hospital stay. Keep in mind you have become more conscious and have returned home to where people's consciousness hasn't changed all that much (I imagine), while you've been away. Tony points to something I can relate to. Relying on people whose level of consciousness isn't high enough to raise you further can be a bit of a trap. It's kinda like you spend your time waiting for them to make a difference they just won't make or can't make for some reason.
Someone once said to me something along the lines of 'In order to raise yourself and/or be raised by others, you need to create a reliable circle of 'go to' people'. Who you bring into that circle will dictate how conscious you become and at what rate you graduate to higher levels of consciousness. Some people will fast track you. I see you've already begun to create that circle. You have the day program with the people in that. Expanding the circle, you've come here. So, the question is 'Who next? What next'?. Perhaps you feel this is enough for now. No probs. Good start.
Tony also mentions the benefits of coming here, to a place where people have some personal experience with mental health challenges. One of the benefits of interacting with folk here comes down to gradually developing certain mantras with one perhaps being 'There's nothing wrong with me if that typical strategy doesn't work, it's just a strategy that simply doesn't suit my unique nature'. For example, you could be advised to go walking each day in your local area. If you're someone who feels sound, a collection of traffic noises, barking dogs, lawnmowers and whipper snippers would provide a highly stressful walk. Not good for your nervous system. It's simply not your thing. Go for a walk once or twice a week along tracks in bushland, perhaps with a walking buddy, and bamm. You could have a form of exercise that you and your nervous system absolutely love.
With years of experience of finding what works and what doesn't work in the way of mental, physical and a soulful sense of health, I can tell you a lot of the typical stuff doesn't work for me. I'm more an outside the square kinda gal. In some cases, I prefer what's natural (not walking along a noisy street but a path in nature).
