Dear Gilip~
I'm glad you are getting medical support, even if you get ups and downs I'd expect overall it does help.
Feeling isolated is par for the course as you know. I get a fair degree of physical pain at times and if I'm with others even that forms a barrier - everyone else on the other side. Depression and the mental pain is that much more intense and the barrier even more absolute.
I hope being here with others that do understand is a help. Simple things like needing to remain in bed can be understood and not judged - or more truthfully judged by realistic standards.
Knowing that in theory exercise etc is beneficial is all well and good, but not always possible, particularly if you set your sights too high at the wrong times. That's just setting yourself up for failure and all the self-contempt that follows. I deliberately made no mention of skates, as it seemed to me too big an ask even though you had enjoyed them.
So what small matters can you do, ones that are quite possible when trapped and sad? Even listening to a song you've liked can be a victory. I use 'Windmills of Your Mind". I'm sure you know this, many small successes do mount up and change self perception for the better.
Croix
