Hate so much being depressed

justyou81 · ‎15-12-2015

I live in Perth WA and I work full-time. I hate waking being depressed. I wish I had friends at work who are my friends. Actually I wish I had friends who I can trust and lean on. I hate being on my own. I try so dam hard to fit in. I sick of this everytime I wake up.... argggghhhh.. please help me....

Paul · ‎15-12-2015

Hey justyou81,

Welcome! You're amongst friends here who can really relate to being sick of waking up feeling crap. You're not alone and we all know it can be really really tough sometimes.

No real friends at work and no friends outside of work, waking up feeling depressed. It's a tough gig fitting in, what brought this all on?

Have you been diagnosed with depression or chatted with your Dr about how you're feeling?

Are you happy to tell us a bit more?

Paul

Chicken_Wings · ‎15-12-2015

Hi justyou81,

I hate waking up feeling depressed too, especially when you know you need to go to work.
What is your morning routine? I've made adjustments to mine in an effort to beat this thing.

The worst is waking up and just knowing you feel like crap. But instead of lying in bed wishing I could just fall back to sleep, I go into the living room and lay on the couch and do some breathing exercises.
It doesn't make everything magically better, but it's easy to do, redirects my thoughts and also the change of scenery (even just from the bedroom to the lounge) is helpful.

Its easy to feel alone when you're trying to do this by yourself. Like lats said, have you spoken to your GP or anyone else about how you're feeling? You don't have to feel this way and there are things you and they can do to improve whats going on.

And if it helps, keep posting here.

Guest_1055 · ‎15-12-2015

Hello

It sounds like you really don't want to face the day at all, and you are just plain sick of it..... Hugs to you. But I was actually wondering if you do make yourself go to work, when you wake up feeling so depressed? For me it can be really difficult to even make my bed.

I don't have many friends either, but the people on here are pretty friendly and they do seem to care.

I also lived alone in a little house, a while back. But I ended up purchasing a tiny black kitten, and she was my only friend for a time. She was very good for me, because she taught me how to think about someone else besides myself. Like I sort of learnt how to love. Do you have any pets? Just wondering that's all. Because they can help you feel like you are not on your own.

Well I just wanted to say hello, and I hope you feel better soon.

Many hugs

Shelley xxx

PS. About trying to fit in.....my experience with that is if I tried to be something I'm not, like I would try and be talkative,in hope people would like me. But that made me feel false and I said dumb things. Other times I didn't try at all, and I felt much more at ease and real. I think I was over- trying . I think be yourself, and don't worry one bit if you fit in or not.

HelenM · ‎15-12-2015

Hi Justyou 81

I'm sorry but right now I can't post. However I wanted to let you know I'm thinking about you.

Take care, Helen

Smurfette80 · ‎15-12-2015

Justyou81 I know exactly what it's like to feel this way. It's hard when people don't understand how depression works or what it's like to feel this way. I'm going through it myself right now. Please try to stay positive. If your friends don't seem to understand have you considered a psychiatrist or councillor? Sometimes talking to someone who isn't close to you is better.

White_Rose · ‎16-12-2015

Dear Just you

Hello and welcome. I love your butterfly. I want to know how you can place your calling card on the forum. I know the process of going through my account but it never works. I copy something I would love to represent me but can't get it where it should go.

Trusting others is a huge deal. One day someone will come along that you can "click" with and talk about your story and your journey. But I understand how frustrating it is to keep it all bottled up inside. As Smurfette has said, talking to a professional person can be a great help. If you have not already done so, I do urge you to visit your GP. This is another opportunity to chat and also to get some help in managing.

When I was working I had the experience as you, getting up feeling dreadful and wanting to stay in bed etc. I set myself a routine for getting up. It always started with making my bed so that I could not get back in. Well I could of course, but it was harder to do so when the bed was made.

So I had a routine for shower/getting dressed/eating breakfast (at least on those morning when I could eat). Put the radio on to have sound in the house, make lunch to take with me and so on. At each step I would review how many tasks I had completed and how many to go. Sounds a bit compulsive, which I'm not, I know but it make me quite pleased as I went through the first part of the morning to tick off each step. And then I was ready to go out of the door.

Yes I still felt ratshit but I had accomplished something and it made the five minute walk to the station easier. It is these small goals that keep us going and certainly made me feel a part of the human race. Just doing the next thing can get you through the day and while it may sound as though I was a robot it did work. Just do the next thing almost became my mantra.

Please write in again and tell us more about yourself and how you are traveling.

Mary